My heart is yours

Part 4.

Remus POV:

After I left the common room I went straight outside the building. Did I react the wrong way? No, he should have not made it about himself and why was he so pissed, it's not like I'm Regulus or something. I sit down beside a tree and start crying. Why am I crying? I don't know. How did I want him to react?

I've been sitting here for a few hours now and no one expect me came out the building, I realise that I am not even aloud to be outside at this time. But I won't get caught here. Suddenly I see the grass in front of me platting. "Fuck off James!", I say, he is the only one with an invisible cloak. "Not James.", Sirius that's great, "Fuck off Black!" "Yeah, no, I am not gonna do that.", he says taking off the cloak so I can see him. "What do you want?" "To apologise!", wait really? I wait for him to say anything but there is just silence.

"I'm sorry Moony. I really am. I shouldn't have made this about myself. And I'm actually thankful that you are trusting me with this.", he looks at me and smiles, it's an honest smile. A single tear is rolling down my cheek. He frowns a little and pulls me into a hug, "I didn't want to make you cry Moony I'm so sorry..." "it's okay. I'm also sorry. I was just kinda pissed and all." "Why?" "I don't know you guys make it really hard to drop hints..", we both laugh. "I'm sorry Moony!", he repeats.

We take the cloak and go inside the building again. "So how did you know?", he asks, "know what?" "Well... that you're gay..", I glance at him and smirk by the fact that he blushed, "well-", I begin but than I see filch turning up at the other end of the corridor, "later.", I whisper, Sirius nods.

We sit down next to the fire. "So?" "Well I realised when I had my first kiss with a girl. And when I had my first kiss with a guy." "Who?" "Frank Longbottom", I'm kind of embarrassed about that, because he told me that he likes girls afterwards. "You and Longbottom?" "He is straight..", Sirius nods. "So you and Marlene? how is it working?", i ask curios, "Ohhh she is a lesbian.." "Yeah I know" "what do you mean you know?", he says, "well I realised that long time ago." "And you didn't tell me? I can not believe you! I've been hitting on her for two fucking months!!" "Sorry Pads but it was so funny..", I bust out laughing, "no it wasn't.", now he's laughing too.

"I'm gonna go to bed", Sirius says at two hours later. "Sure, goodnight.", I smile and he nods. He leaves and I breath out heavily. I feel this feeling in my stomach. I don't really care. I grab my book 'the song of archillis' and start reading. After half an hour I stop. My thoughts drift away. So I just think and put my book down. After a few minutes everything is fitting together. "Oh no", I whisper. I take a pillow and slap it against my head. I'm so so so stupid.

Oh my god! I fancy Sirius Black. That's why I reacted that way. That's why I was so relieved when I found out he knows Marlene is a lesbian. Oh no. This can't be true. Please don't. He is so convinced to be straight. This is gonna ruin my whole friendship. I sigh. Get up and go to bed. I refuse to look at Sirius witch is laying right next to me. I'm just gonna be normal. Because else he will realise.

I wake up facing Sirius. He smiles at me. "Good morning Moony", he says, "morning", I mumble. I feel wierd. "I'm gonna take a shower", I say while rushing out to the bathroom. I take a long hot shower. But I forgot to take my clothes inside. So I have to go out with just a towel around my hips. I enter the room and see Prongs, Wormy and Pads sitting on their beds looking at me. James whistles. Peter blushes and Sirius breathes in the air very sharply. That's embarrassing. "I forgot my clothes in here..", I say. I grab my clothes and get back into the bathroom. I am very comfortable in my body actually so it wasn't that bad but their reactions?

"Moony you became hot!", James said when I came out the door again. "Yes he did!", Pads says. I smirk "is that so?", Padfoot blushes. I giggle and sit down on my bed. "So no school today. Thanks to me being a werewolf. What are you guys gonna do?" "I'm gonna stay with you. Looking out for you to not change in public.", Sirius says, smiling at me, that's nice. "I'm gonna annoy Evans a little and get to you guys at 4pm so we get to the house in time.", James is going to make Lilly fall in love with him I know that. "Well.. I have a kind of date in a café so I will come also at 4.", Peter says quietly. "You have a date?", Prongs can not believe what he just heard, "of course he has.. look at our sweet Wormy. He is quite handsome.", I say. Sirius glances at me.