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my annoying fracture

so yes I have a fracture on my back its exactly on my spine and it's annoying I had therapy for like 5 or more months and nothing worked but whatever right?. So the therapist let me go and gave up on trying to help and now I'm on my own she suggested for me to continue doing my exercises and I have but man this pain is annoying to the point where you can't live with it forever.

   It's been like 3 months since she releases me to just do my exercises at home and see what happens and hopefully it gets better....IT'S NOT GETTING BETTER AT ALL!!!! and my only option is surgery and I don't want that cuz it's kind of scary and I've never had surgery done on me. We are still deciding on what to do (by 'we' i mean me and my parents) but it's getting closer to the 'yes I'm getting surgery' it like a 75% yes and a 30%, no you not getting it done till you a little older. My dad thinks it's better to get it right now so I will be able to move more and so I don't struggle to do anything I want to do. 

"We should wait for the year to pass and maybe at the end of January we'll get you checked up and do it if we need to want to and also if you want to"  <yes exact word so I have to wait for this year to end and then 1 more month so 2 more months before our final decision should I update on that if I do? I'm SCARED there going to deep sleep me and open me up!! gosh, that sound...Ewww.

I have been with the same pain and fracture for at least a year already if I don't get the surgery done it's going to be 2 years and it hurts like ..ugh... and worst of all I won't be able to dance I want to be able to dance or at least learn how to. I'm also going to need to move for my photography career too and...man if I don't have my back fixed by the time I turn 18 my life is going to be hard to figure out I also want to go to college and damn come to think of it that all sounds impossible but I guess I have to wait to see what God has for me in the future...