Leaving me wonderland
Take the home i have for this
Relish in the desperation
To subvert from normalcy
Drowning in ice
Able to move but trained to sit
Time doesn't have room
For comfort
Make my crow cease
Pecking at my inside
Please
Take my hand
Without feeling
It's your fault not theirs
Please don't feel
The need to dehydrate my memory
Even when it's necessary
Its my devious selfishness
And I'm sorry
Please dont leave
I hate it here
I'll dance to what suits your fancy
Clinging to intimacy
Vacant of feeling
Sketching the basics of relief
Ignore the voice of gut
Feed the starved apathy
Justifying restlessness with exhaustion
Existance becomes tired
Tugging on your clothes
Your sleeves
Wet and nagging
Soaked
In the hero of this love story
Unwanted truths
The sleepless taboo of nurture
Porcalein mannekins
Disbelieved when their 24 hr shift is over
Conflicted between priorities
Shudder with contained grief
Hand me the exit pass
I mean
If you want to
Riot submerged in guilt
Independance insured with knives
And bloody knuckles
Locked away behind
This seamless grin
A vessel for temptation
Turn around
No
Ok
Im sorry
Skin
Torn
In patterns
Handmade to the thoughts
Revising the agony
Stay a bit longer
Clawing at the stomach
Gagged
Chained
To a naked nausea
Camouflaged with apologies
Flick the lighter
Will you dear
Wait we forgot the petrol
Hold on I'll get it
Just stand there
Still
Until i come back
Then put your trust in the firepit
Ok
Sorry lol
It's necessary
I know
It's ok
Singe the edges
Just a bit more
Don't worry I'll stop soon
soon
Empty promises
There's a master key
It doesn't fit
Bury it
Put up with it
Doubt consumes you but that's ok
Everyone feels the same
Why do they look comfortable
Wait
So do i
Until i don't
You selfish bitch
Make your mind up
You're leading them on
Just a bit longer
You're digging yourself a hole
Ok
It's ok
I'm ok
They'll be ok
Eventually
Withstand the pressure
It's just a procedure
Sleep in a submarine
Amidst an ocean of earthquakes
Waiting for the shaking to cease
Slowing to a tickle
Consuming your life
All else is forgotten
Loneliness returns after a while
Yet another heart becomes the victim of your hopeless pursuel
Test subjects for your secret
Muted behind charm
Muffled by infatuation
Put on a record
This one?
Yes, the vynel
But its broken
That's the point
I'm used to it
And it scares me every time
Hey
Commitment issues
Did you miss me
