Begin Again

Chapter 1

Jake's POV

why couldn't jade just get into the same college as me.. i mean it would've been easier
I wouldn't have to avoid her so that i won't have anymore feelings towards her after this high school shit. I love her. Still do. And i dont know if i could stop.

Since last week i've been distracting myself with britany.. britney.. whatever her name is, so that i won't think about jade. Yes, me and britney hooked up a couple of times. She didn't know that i still have feelings for jade. I told her that i'm over her, that she meant nothing to me. And thankfully she believed me. But knowing that she's somekind of queen be in our school. I thought she'll spread the news that i'm over jade and she's nothing to me.

And BAM!!

It's true that she did spread the news to all of the students here. And ive been searching jade for like what.. 2 hours, yet i still haven't found her.
I never mean to hurt her feelings. Yet i still do.
I hate it when she cried, when she pretended to be strong in front of me but inside she's suffering.

I've searched everywhere, everyclasses, every fucking room in this school. Then i think about the restroom.
Hell i'm so stupid. I didnt thought of that before.

With that i sprinted through the hallway, straight to the ladies restroom. I don't care if there is another girl in there. I just bursted into the ladiesroom and shouted to all of the girls who were inside to come out and leave.

And there is this one stall that haven't opened yet. And then i heard a sniff. I guess thats her.

I sighed and stalked near the stall. I knocked twice then it felt like everything disappeared. Silence. Thats all i got.

"Jade, i know it's you" i said

Silent.

"Jade please come out.." i said again

Still silent.

"Jade don't believe britney and her friends." I said
I waited for a coupke of seconds before i sighed and said "i won't go until you come out of this stall."

After about 5 minutes which felt like a century she said something..

"Just go away" she said

Her voice was hoarse and i know that she's holding her sobs.

"Jade please. Just-.. we need to talk... about this.... about us-" i said but she cut me off.

"You made it clear that i mean nothing to you, and i clearly saw it everytime you're with britney. So we don't need to talk. And please i'm practically begging you to go away, please." Her voice broke at the end of her sentence.

It hurt that i'm the one who caused this pain to her.

"Jade we need to sort this out. I'm still not over you, even if i tried to. I tried so many times to get over you. However i can't. It hurts a lot to know that we won't be able to be together. Please we need to talk. Please jade." I said and whispered at the end.

I heard her shaky breath from here. I know she's nearly crying in front of me.. well technically not in front of me. But she never cries in front of everyone. I know that, she always cries when there's nobody with her. Because she doesn't want to seem weak.

I waited for a couple more minutes before i sighed and sit on the floor. I didn't bother to look whether the floor was clean or not.

And then i heard the lock of the stall unlocked. I immediately looked up to find the door slowly opened revealed her.

She had bags under her eyes, her lips were swollen, i know it's because she's been biting her lips to stop crying. And the most intimidating sight of her was her watery eyes. I couldn't believe that i was the one who made her cry like this.

I immediately stood up and tried to hug her. Keyword, tried. Before i touched her she had flinched away from me. And it felt like someone had punched me in my face.

"What do you want?" She asked with a shaky voice. She couldn't even looked at me in the eye. I messed up.. i really messed up this time.

"Please jade you know i hate it when you cried." I said

"Why do you even care about me? Have you forgotten what you said back then? Yeah let me remind you. i mean nothing to you." She said

With that she stormed out of the ladiesroom.

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