Little Love

Chapter 2

Roomie

The middle of "Why'd you only call me when you're high"  starts playing  and I immediately jump out of my bed as I got scared by the loud volume of my alarm. "Why is it so loud?"
I mumble to myself as I proceed to turn the other 5 soon-to-make-you-deaf alarms and it hit me. "I must've turned the volume up too much last night."
I glance one quick to the clock on my phone. 5:32 a.m.
Damn, this is probably the earliest I've ever woken up. Usually I go to sleep by then...
I slowly lay back down, close my eyes and take a deep breath.

Today is the day...

I am leaving Germany for good. I have to admit as much as the thought of it makes me sad it also makes me happy. This was the change I longed for... Yet being accepted at the University of Copenhagen was an extreme shock (in a positive way) for me, it still feels like a fever dream. Hopefully, the programme will be good and other students on campus approachable. I hate to admit it, but people surrounding me have a huge impact on how I feel. Example: I can be at the most fun amusement park but if I am there with people that don't match my energy I'd pick my purse and leave. Just can't do it.

I slowly sit up, still attacked with my own inner monolouge, taking my phone in my hands. One unread message pops up.

Lanie: Ava omg today is the big day!!! I know we hung out like 2 days ago but I still have the need to see you before you go on a plane. Can I come with you to the airport??? (4:25 a.m.)

Lanie is my best friend since first day of high school. I remember her standing in front of the classroom, wrapped up with her own thoughts as she was leaned on the first floor balcony with her elbows. She looked so confused and I was so glad because I was million times more confused and scared. She was the only person standing in front of the classrom we were told to come and that's when my panick arrived. What if I looked at the wrong schedule and now I can't come to the introduction?
What if I messed up the time and the professor is writing down every single person in the classroom, in which, I reminded myself, I am not. Therefore, I am being irresponsible on my very first day of school?
"Relax pickle-head, they still have 10 minutes left to show up, we're just early." I heard someone giggling at me.

"Pickle-head?" I stated confused as I looked at her.

"It's because y-" she started but I interrupted her while I laughed "I don't want to know why you thought of calling me that." She laughed as well.

After that day we were practically inseperable. I know it sounds weird, but we chatted after that and simply found out we match good together. My humor was weird, hers was even weirder, we both liked the same type of music, reading books, etc.

Lanie is my No1 supporter and she was with me this whole week as I was trying to process how this is going to look like once I move to Copenhagen... She always looks so  calm and unbothered by everything, I often wish I could do the same for once. Maybe I wouldn't have any more panick attacks and would be calmer...
I wish Lanie wouldn't care this much for me right now, I chose and enrolled to universiry while she is still dwelling on whether to stay in Germany or go to Russia so she could study Computer Science. I mean, I know I'd snap and panick 24/7... Damn maybe I am a freak... However, this whole university thing is very much stressful, I mean you're literally told "Yeh no biggie just choose an UNI which will determine your whole life ahead."
I sighed... I don't really have much time left so I better finish packing and get ready.
It was 5:54 a.m. now and my plane is taking off in exactly 4 hours and 6 minutes. And I have to get there an hour early so I have 3 hours left.