i don't even know how we got here one minute we were joking and now.....I'm deep in and don't know how to get out.
Alaina Harrison, a 18 year old girl in university all she's ever wanted was to be successful to prove to her family that she was worth...
A/N : just wanted to say I will be adding songs at the top for you guys and I recommend listening while reading because it just sets the mood better but you don't if you don't want to. Also there is a little bit of suicidal references in this chapter if you don't like that type of stuff please feel free to skip it. Bye 😶🌫️
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Alaina
I really wish that sometimes just maybe I won't wake up, but you don't get everything you want in life.
I got up from my bed and dragged my self to the bathroom, turned on the tap and stared at my reflection in the mirror.
" stupid fucking eye bags" I poked my face hoping maybe all my flaws would majestically go away along with my mental scars but they never do.
People don't believe that words hurt more than any wounds. With words, as you start to hear them,the more you believe it.
Flashback
"Gosh I've never had such a pain in the ass, every single morning I have to tell you what to do like your some baby" no words.
"Get out of my face, you disgust me" no words.
"Look at you, if you didn't act like such a boy you wouldn't have all these ugly scars on your body" still no words.
Flashback ended
People planted all this shit in my head and you expect me not to be messed up, I can't even go out without feeling like people are better than me or thinking maybe if I just died I would be making everyone's life easier.
It's come to the point, I'm just alive without actually living and I'm tired, I'm so fucking tired.
I don't even know what happened to me, I used be to be excited to wake up and face the day, now I feel like I'm losing my self to the darkness and I tell myself you can't have light without going through the dark but I think that's just me convincing myself to stay.
Knock, knock ,knock
"Alaina, you in there girl?" Jess' bubbly voice came from behind the door.
"Yeah I'll be out in a minute" I washed my face and dried it with one of the soft towels on the towel rack
"Girl you were in that bitch forever" I gave her a small laugh
"Yeah, well the bathroom is all yours now malady" she giggled and said thank you and I went to my room to get dressed for the day
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(Alaina's outfit)
Cute. I walked over to the living room where everyone was at and I saw everyone crowded around Kyle, watching something on his phone.
"Hey guys what's up" I said
"Hm what's up indeed" Kyle said with a smirk, Aleesha came into view her hair wet. She just washed it.
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(Aleesha's outfit)
She looked good. Like really good
"What are you guys crowded around Kyle like that for"
"I asked the same thing"
"Well since the two of you wanna know so bad, Alaina you remember Casey right?"
"Yeah...?" I gave him a weird look not sure if I like where this is going.
" well she's back in town and I decided to invite her for the wedding" this bitch has got to be kidding me.
"Kyle how the fuck did you come to that?"
"Well she was on live on Instagram and I decided to holla at her and she replied saying hi and I thought what a better way to start drama than to invite both of your ex's here" fucking prick.
Long story short Casey played both me and Aleesha at the same time, me and Aleesha found out and I broke up with her first because I am no one's side piece. Aleesha later found out and broke up with her too.
I promised myself I would never let myself fall for anyone ever again, especially when they didn't feel the same way.
But there was only one person I would always make an exception for.
