i don't even know how we got here one minute we were joking and now.....I'm deep in and don't know how to get out.
Alaina Harrison, a 18 year old girl in university all she's ever wanted was to be successful to prove to her family that she was worth...
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Aleesha
Life is good.
You know when you have those "damn life is actually going great" moments? Well I'm having one of those right now.
And it all comes down to one petite human being.
Her.
She's beautiful, scrap that she is drop-dead gorgeous. The funny thing is I tried to keep a "friendship" relationship with Alaina, but I can't.
I can't just act like I every time I see her, I don't wanna pin her to the nearest wall and fuck the life out of her. I can't just act like I don't get jealous when I see her flirting or looking at other people with the eyes that should only be looking at me. I can't just act like that kiss didn't send me to another dimension.
I can just act like 'we' or 'us' isn't a thing.
Truth be told, I didn't expect to even fall for Alaina, I didn't expect to still be so attracted to her as i was all those years ago. But I am and it hurts that I don't know if she wants the same thing.
It's not just her soft body and her plum pink lips I'm attracted to, it's her soul, the way she carries herself with such confidence even when she's at her lowest. I admire that about her, I admire the fact that she has such high resilience and doesn't let her problems affect others.
But I know I could never be there for her like the way she expects me to. I'll never be able to show her I love her at all times, reassure her. She wouldn't ever be able to trust me, hell I wouldn't even allow her too.
I would never be enough so it would be selfish of me to keep her to myself.
So I have to let her go, even if that kiss did mean the world to me, I have to let her go.
