The Purpose of My Life | SaTzu

Chapter 11

Sana's POV

"I feel so bad for hurting her. She's hurt, i know, but when i see her forcing a smile, it made me feel really guilty and sad because i was the one who hurt her. I even made her cried, i am so sorry. It was so hard telling her because from the start, i knew she would get hurt. But i have to do it because i don't want her to suffer, i don't want the both of us to suffer. I am such a bad person." Tzuyu let out what she has been bottling inside. I listened to every word she said while giving gentle and soft pats on her back, wanting to comfort her.

Even after she's done, i stayed quiet and continued patting her, letting her relax and calm her thoughts. Her body is tensed but i can feel her shoulders starting to relax as i patted her back. I smiled to myself, she's finally relaxing.

"Are you feeling better, Tzuyu-ah?" I asked softly, still patting her strong back.

"I feel much better thanks to you, Sana. Thank you." She said softly, putting her forehead on my shoulder and snuggled towards my neck.

"Don't let go yet. I want to stay like this for a bit longer." She added on when i was about to pull away from her because i thought she wanted to let go when she moved her head. I stopped moving and the both of us continued hugging each other in silence, no words spoken.

After minutes, Tzuyu pushed herself away from me gently, her expression was full of sadness. I placed my palm on her shoulder, smiling at her with comfort.

"You're not a bad person, Tzuyu-ah. You knew what you have to do in order to avoid both sides suffering and it's always for the better. I'm sure she will understand your intention, she will know that it's for the best and that you did it with a good reason." I said, assuring her and hoping to comfort her somehow.

"Thank you, Sana-ah. If you are not here, i'm probably going to keep thinking that i'm a bad person who hurt people." She said, smiling with gratefulness.

"At least you don't hurt people on purpose." I said and we both shared a light chuckle together.

"Of course i won't do that." She said in between her chuckles.

"So what about dinner?" I asked after we stopped chuckling. She thinks about it, staring into the wall in front of her with a blank expression. I rested my head on her shoulder as we thought about our dinner.

"How about eating out? Or do you want to eat at home?" Tzuyu asked, letting me lean on her shoulder and stayed still.

"Hmm...Which one do you want? I don't mind both." I said, throwing the question back to her.

"Let's eat at home then." She made the decision for the both of us and i hummed, pushing my head off from her shoulder. We used her phone to look at the food online so she's going to buy dinner with her own money on my behalf.

"I want to eat kimchi, tteokbokki(red rice cakes) and fried chicken." I said, pointing at the thumbnail of the food on the screen. She put them into the cart as i told her what i want and now, it's her turn to choose what she wants to eat. She ordered bulgogi(Korean BBQ beef) and bibimbap(mixed rice with vegetables). She then turned her head to me, using her facial expression to ask me if i wanted to add anything else to the cart. I shook my head and she turned back to her phone, placing our order and paying for the food with her card.

"Thank you for the food, Tzuyu-ah~" I said with a happy smile.

"You're welcome." She said, smiling back at me. We went to the living room to wait for the food to be delivered to our house. I jumped onto the sofa right away, lying down on my stomach, while Tzuyu went to switch the television on.