Jack, what do I feel about Jack? And once again this question bubbles to the top of my head, as it seems to always do. Jack, my best friend and the one I trust and could never live without, how could I tell him what I feel if I don't know myself? I wish this never happened, I wish it was a few months back.
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"HEY, ALEX GET YOUR BUTT OVER HERE" i hear my best friends voice shouting from the other side of the canteen, I walk over and sit in my usual place, next to my best friend. Sitting at a table with Rian, Zack and Matt.
"Why you so late today?" Jack managed to get out while shoveling the discusting food into his mouth
"Detention"
"AGAIN, that's the third time this month" jeez, Jack was announcing my news to everyone like I had got married or something..
"What, its just Mr. Hanin getting at me again for not doing my homework, like i care, its his problem not mine"
"Yeah but that goes on your record you, know and your not going to go somewhere very good when your older if you have about 3000 detentions in your name. I mean what if this whole band thing just blows up in our faces and we get nowhere" Jack always likes to over exagerate things, mostly about me.
"i dont fucking care" I end with a wink so Jack knows I am joking and we get on with our food Zack and Rian snigering about Me and Jacks little argument.
"whats your problem?"
"nothing, you to always seem to do that though, just get on each others nerves that bit to much" Rian answers and bursts out laughing, along with Zack but i don't see whats so funny.
Me and Jack turn to look at each other and think do we really do that?I can see the worry in Jacks eyes so tell them both to shut up and we all get on with our food.
The day went on normally from then on, no lessons with Jack though, always a disappointment. I walk home with Jack talking about the latest girls and games.
"hey, you wanna come back to mine" Jack says whilst nearing his house
"Sure" we go inside and run straight upstairs to his room for some gaming. We lie on the bed, next to one another laughing, like normal after school gaming sessions. After a few hours past, I decide to finally text my mom. She agreeing as always, that I can stay for longer.
Jack grabs hand and lifts it up in the air "Look at the winner, for once you where able to beat me"
I like the softness of Jacks hand , it always made my heart swell. "Alex, Alex" his words softly bring me out of my daydream, what was that? I am straight, what the fuck made me think that, it was a nice thought though. "Alex, Alex, what is up with you man? You look all lovey"
"nothing, ahaha must be the cold" I think with unsure thoughts, what was up with that?
As the weeks pass I begin to feel how Jack is just amazing, and how I haven't noticed it in this way before, I mean i have always thought he was the best person ever, but now he is more that, he is everything.
