Camren/You Imagines

not enough

Lauren/You

-trigger warning for suicide-

Y/N POV

Feeling the cold wind being blown against my skin. My hair blowing through the breeze, how I could just be blown away like a feather. I could be free.

Key word, I could be free. But currently I'm stuck in my head with my own thoughts like a bird being trapped in cage, hopeless with no one to help free them.

1 month before

"Y/n please just drop it." Lauren told me. " What? You me want to drop it like it's nothing?!" I asked her in disbelief. "Yes that's exactly what I want you to do."She said closing her closet door.

"Your just gonna act like you and her weren't flirting with each other?" Lauren sat at her desk and pulled books out of her backpack. "We weren't flirting with each other! You know she is an old friend and I was just being friendly, I have a right to miss my friend
you know." She told me.

"Oh okay but, I'm pretty sure she has some type feelings for you" I told her as I sat on her bed. Unfortunately for me I was to distracted getting my own stuff out of my backpack that I didn't notice how her cheeks turned red due to my comment.

"Really? I um didn't notice"

And I didn't take notice to how she looked messy when coming back from free period, was from someone because she dismissed it as from running.

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"Why?" She looked away from me while putting a shirt on. "Look I'm sorry Y/n it was a mistake I still care about you" She said. "Your sorry? Yeah right you expect me to believe that?" I asked her. "Yes okay I'm sorry that I care about you" Nayeon said in a annoyed tone.

"You care for me?! Says the one I just caught cheating on me with her so called 'old friend'" I said walking to our room.

"Well its not my fault y- wait why are you packing my stuff?" She said walking up to me. "Isn't it obvious?." I said finishing up in the closet and walking around the rest of the apartment to get her other stuff in bags.

"Um no? Care to tell me." She said while following me. "Your leaving, I can't be around you right now." I grabbed the last bit of her clothes.

"Im leaving? Wait no Y/n, it was just a mistake she was there and I just wanted attention that you weren't giving me." She said trying to stop me from putting the bags at the front door.

"I wasn't giving you attention? I always give you attention, you are the one who has been distant lately." I said getting angry. "Listen your just not enough lately okay? I need more than what you've been giving and she was offering it." She walked over and grabbed her bags.

-flashback-

"Please stop dad!" I yelled as I tried to block the bottles being thrown at me. I guess that just made him angrier because then he grabbed the nearest thing to him, which was a glass vase with flowers. And threw it right at my ribs making wince as it broke.

"Oh no no no." He said as went to grab the flowers fell in the floor. I realized he threw the flowers that were by my moms picture. "I'm so sorry honey I didn't mean to throw them." He then placed them next to her photo.

"This is your fault you!" He yelled at me then got up and pushed me to the floor. As I tried to brace myself my hands ended up in all the broke glass. "Shit!" He then grabbed me by my hair and pulled my face up.

"You see that? All I have left of her is a picture and it's your fault!" He then punched me in the face. "I thought giving her a kid would make her happy but I didn't know it was going to be the reason she left." He said then pushed me against the wall.

"You just weren't enough to make her stay we're you?" He sobbed in my face. "You just had to be a freak didn't you?" He then pushed me into the glass on the floor. "You will never be enough for anyone, not me, not her, and not for anyone else in this god damn world." He said then walked away.

-end of flashback-

"What?" I asked as all my anger left me. "Your not enough okay? You know what I'm leaving don't try calling me." She said then walked out the front door just like everyone else had, because I wasn't enough.

Present

I was never enough for anyone to stay. Not my mom, her, or the rest of my friends. They all left me her alone by myself. I tried to move on with my life but I couldn't. I stopped showing up to my school, my grades started slipping and my dad started beating me more.

I just couldn't take it anymore. I was trapped in my head and the same words just kept replying.

Your will never be enough

Your not enough

It's just not enough to stay now is it

Lauren had been the only person I loved and was the only reason I actually stayed in this piece of shit world, but she was gone now too, so I tried to called her one last time. It rung, and it kept ringing.

Hi it's Lauren sorry I couldn't get to the phone at the moment I'll try to call you back as soon as possible.

Of course she wouldn't answer, at least the last thing I heard would be her voice.

So then i stood at the edge of the building and looked down.

No one was down there, not a car or a person.

I hope I would be in peace now, but where did hope ever get anyone.

so then I jumped

finally I had felt free

falling