Merle, shes praying.

The Church Of Torment

Sunday

I walked into the church, I was an hour early. I had to find the pastor and get everything off my chest. I went into the side room and saw him shuffling around a few books, "Father, I need to get something off my chest, it has been bothering me for quite awhile now..." he turned to look at me, "Its alright I know what it is, sit on the floor." He spoke so soft and calmingly, I knew I could trust him. He went over to the door, I think he locked it. He came back over, pulling a chair and sitting directly infront of me. I started to get really lightheaded and nauseous, everything started flashing and became really out of time. The pastor pushed on my head from behind, "Do it." He shoved my head into his crotch. "I know you want to, my angel."

"WHAT THE HELL" I fell back, did I say that? "what?" the pastor seemed irritated. "YOURE A DISGUSTING PEDOPHILE!" I screamed at him as I tried to run to the door, I kept stumbling, I was too unsteady... I kept throwing myself at the door trying to unlock it, until the pastor came and hit me over the head with a book, knocking me out.

I woke up and I was laying down infront of a giant cement cross with a giant jesus on it, as I blinked my eyes trying to get rid of my blurry vision, the statue started crying blood, then it would dissapear on every second blink. "Pray. Pray to god to forgive your sins." The pastor was screaming at me, I started crying along with the statue. I sat up on my knees only to be kicked in the back by the pastor, I fell onto my hands and watched the tears drop onto the floor, everything was flashing again, the room was spinning, my tears started falling faster and faster, suddenly all the clear water was replaced with an inky black liquid. "YOU FUCKING DEMON! YOU TRIED TO CURSE ME!" I think the pastor was screaming, it sounded so faint. I felt a large chunk of vomit come up my throat, I tried to keep it down as it started burning my insides.

Next thing I know I woke up standing hunched over in a giant forest, everything was spinning. Now I was in a giant field of sunflowers, its like I had teleported... No- now I'm at a beach, everything is still spinning, I started to fix my posture as the world spun around and around. I started falling down, and as I finally hit the ground I started to pray. "I am begging the lord for forgiveness" I said, praying all my sins would perish like everyone around me. The world stopped spinning; I was back in the forest. I could smell the withering spirits dancing in the fog infested air, I had allowed a single tear to escape from my rotting eyes. The blood within me flew through the dark, rich soil. I had called upon the gods to release me from this misery I never wanted in the first place. "Pray. Pray you sinner." I could hear the pastor speak slowly. The wounds from my hand started to re-open, I heard it drip onto a wooden surface, I had probably gone back to the church, that's why I heard the pastor, maybe I was always in the church?

I continued to pray and pray for hours, days and years in the same spot, I was too scared to move until I got my answer... Would all my sins be forgiven?

God had declined