drugs an tha

long rides seem longer,micheal,mission.

long rides seem longer

we drove for quite some time. i couldn't not think of that family. just trying. like mine, just trying to get by but never can. cut short by any obstacle. i saw pictures up. they where a normal family. i wish my family was normal. my parents were fucking murderers. how can i live with tha. then again so am i. i always think of him. he's all i think off. just there in my mind. i miss him. he was reliable. now my reliability relies on an old man called trevor. a man i bearly know. he's a nice guy but that family didn't deserve it. stabbed viciously. i hope i prey it wasn't in vein. everyone should live a long for-filling life not easily put down by the barrel of a gun knife or another mans stupidity. why? why is a good question i come back to. we talk about reliability and why is what i can rely on. why? why do i think? why don't i talk to trevor? he's focused on driving what if i'm a distraction. that's why it's bad to think. and to ask why. i don't get myself constant thought of disappointment. i can't keep living this awkward to be a killer like my dad my mum and trevor i need to stop being me. man up man the fuck up. why can't i just man up. you fucking pussy. fucking jump out right now. but trevor needs you. exactly you can't do it. pathetic. fucking pussy.
daniel: so trev was goin on.
trevor: nofin much yeno just drivin abar ini.
daniel:yeh i guess.
i chuckled. first time for everything i guess.
trevor:what up with you anyway.
shit have i said something? shit why's he asking this.
daniel:erm nothin ya get me nothins up. why do you ask?
fuck always with the fucking why's cant i just not question something i'm so fucking dumb.
trevor:well you asked me so i was replying. it's called a con-ver-station read up on it.
he laughed. why am i so dumb why am i so secretive. FUCK IM ASKING WHY!
why do i do this to myself?
trevor:you look sick hear drink up.
he passed me a bottle of water. he's so cool. he really is a reliable figure why did i even doubt him anyway. i think back. to the family he brutalised. for fuck sake why am i genuinely like this.
trevor: not really the talking type are you?
daniel:no sorry.
i should be more nice to him. he's been nothing but shown hospitality an i throw it in his face.
trevor:kid i get being awkward. i was like that. you need to let your opinion be heard and you'll be like me. not the best but able to stand up for yourself. you get where i'm coming from here.
daniel:yeh. thanks i'll try.
feel bad he wants to help. everyone wants to help. but really only i daniel bolton can help myself. oh and yes i took my mums last name.
especially after what happened i can't share his name.

Michael

the rest of the rose was boring and nothing much happened.
i wasn't told much about micheal. just he was smart charismatic and charming. he lived in new york best place on earth. that's why it took us so long to get there. it was great when we was there tho.
Trevor knocked on the door and then introduced me to the spanish girl he mentioned. she was quite pretty. brown hair a nice face? she had really really nice eyes. sorry i don't know how to describe someone like tha just wow. her names sara. i wish i could just speak to her bu i can't get the courage. our only conversation went like this.
trevor knocks on door. she answers
trevor: hi wheres mike.
her: down the hall on the left hi trev.
me: oh hi.
her: you can sit on the couch there you want anything to eat? drink?
me: erm n..no thanks.
whyyyyy am i so fucking awkward she's just a fucking girlllll.i'm such a prick swear to god.
on the couch was a small man called bill and a tall man called john. bill like i said was the small feisty type. he glerad a lot. he look quite angry. he wore a puffer jacket and some cargo pants with a bernie to complete he drip. he also had a long beard and a strange face. john was his polar opposite. chizzled jaw line that could crack diamonds. nice looking blondish brown hair that would get many girls. he was quite calm and collected. he was everything i wish i was. tall and out going. i bet he could speak to any fucking girl. why? am i like this. i should shut up.
sara:you ok there? dan is it?
daniel:er yes.
sara: oh i was worried i'd get it wrong.
daniel:ha yeh it's ok.
i laughed fuck what if she thinks i'm laughing at her.
sara:hey come here erm u can help me.
john:aha sara's gotta crush fuckin pleb.
sara:fuck off john.
bill:piss of bitch!
we walked of to a fair escape ladder.
sara:come on this way.
she started to climb to the roof. she was wearing black leggings and a black para jumper
sara:i hate them guys some times. they are funny an all but they're a bit much yeno wa i mean.
daniel:yeh. i get tha.
sara:i come here to get away. get away from the violence. i could tell from your awkwardness you could use this place to.
she sat on the ledge.
daniel: you not scared. if you fall.
sara: no i don't care you get me.
daniel: yeh i'm gonna go back downstairs.
sara: come on you just got here live to the fullest. she got up an grabbed my arm before i could leave.
daniel: oh please i need to meet micheal trevors probably waiting for me.
sara:dan trust me down there is violence and chaos you wanna live up here, with me? as long as you can. believe me it's better up here.
daniel: ok this best be worth it.
we sat on the roof ledge for i don't know actually hours just talking about how we're here. what happened. for once not why but what? hm it felt better. i didn't mention troy tho. i couldn't bring myself. she's nice. her face is soft. i put me arm round her. she said it made her feel safe. i like her. she's comfort. i've been looking for reliability. not my own comfort. someone to fall back on when things don't go my way. sara she's my light at the end of the tunnel. something to look for. she's everything.
sara: your really secure? don't want me to fall? i like tha.
daniel: kinky but i could stay here with you forever.
sara:me to.
she looked at me. not a normal look she wanted something. i didn't know what to do. it just happened. i didn't want to complain. she just kissed me. it felt warm. like the feeling. i don't know how long it went on for but for once i. i didn't want to loose something. i had something?
sara: i love you.

mission.

sara:shit was that to soon. i'm sorry i've only know you for like a couple hours.
daniel:i love you to.
i kissed her again.
we went down back through the fire escape after that. we went to micheals room.
trevor:you want to use a kid to traffic drugs. let's not forget what the target is. brownwood crew. and also why did you never rescue me old buddy old pal?
we weren't in the room but listening through a crack.
micheal:trev. you know me i was looking i just couldn't find you ok.
trevor:sure.
he sounded pissed as fuck.
sara: let's go in: she whispered softly. her voice is really calming.
daniel:hi trevor.
i wanted to see what was up. but you always gotta say hi first.
trevor:ayyy dan my favourite 20 year old.
i don't think i told him i'm 17. oh well. sara's 16 a 4 year age gap is worrying.
trevor: well this is micheal and he has a mission for you. why don't you explain what he has to do.
micheal: very well then. well i need to get this case to a secure buyer. problem is no one else can make the distance. so i need you to wait on this parking platform for them to arrive. thank you.
micheal wore a robe and had a trimmed beard and no hair. he was quite small and reminded me of danie divito.
trevor:i'll go with him i'll just hide in the backseat.
micheal:well then very good. i shall see you all after your jobs.
i never knew what anyone else's job was i just got on with mine. i parked up to i nice spot. i was told they had a ford fiesta black. we waited a couple hours and just chatted. it's weird i've never been this sociable without my family before. i still miss them tho.
trevor:ay dan there that's the car i'll get down go meet them.
it had arrived. i got out of the car and approached theirs case in hand. i was told to knock on the window and say wood bird. (it's apparently the name of micheals group.)
daniel:woodbird.
they rolled down the window.
buyer: you got the stuff kid.
i nod. the pass me a case and i pass mine. after examining the money i shake hands and walk off. i wait for the fiesta to leave before telling trevor to get up.
daniel:it's clear you're safe now. you ok back there?
trevor: yeh i'm good atleast the sale went good.
daniel:it sure did pal.
we went back to the building. we spoke with the others but after yesterday i was quite tiered i haven't slept properly in weeks so i thought it would be good to just go asleep now what's the worst that could happen. ay at least i wasn't awkward. at least i kissed sara. where is sara? i haven't seen her. she's probably ok. doing her job an tha. i saw john texting on his phone. i mustered uo courage and went to talk to him.
daniel: hi what's goin on there bro.
john:nothin much just messaging tracy.
daniel:who's tracy? sorry.
john: it's ok i'm not used to being talked to around here anyway i'm normally just the stubborn silent assassin. she's my girlfriend i've known her for three years now. we've came a long way.
daniel: nice man good on ya.
john:yeh thanks man appreciate it.
daniel:no problem bro. i'm always here if your bored.
john: so how are things with you and sara then ay.
wow it really was obviously we liked each other. who would've thought.
daniel:good yeno. well good for a day ya get me not quite on your level.
he laughs and goes back to his phone. i like john he's quite chill. i respect that. he may also be a murderer but he's one i can get behind atleast.
bill: what are you lookin at fuckin oregon.
daniel: what the fuck did you just call me?
i've never spoke to bill before i was really confused tha he came for me like that.
john:ay bill fuck off leave him be. not like hes gonna stab you is he. fuck off.
johns such a guy came in clutch swear to god.
bill:john careful who you stick up for. you can make dangerous enemies in this climate.
he gave john a wink and retreated to his room in defeat. triumphant john went back to his phone. he's so calm. after that incident i couldn't be bothered talkin to anyone else so i just went asleep first time on a while.it felt good. i can't remember what happened like if i had a dream i hope i didn't cos dreams are weird. i woke up feeling great but no one else was in so i just went back asleep. it felt good.