Every time you come around, you know I can't say no
Every time the sun goes down, I let you take control
I can feel the paradise before my world implodes
And tonight had something wonderful
My bad habits lead to late nights endin' alone
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The elevator opened, and she immediately pushed herself inside it; his words stung, but she knew it would end sooner or later. It was inevitable.
Cemre's eyes watched the keyboard, not knowing what button to push; she couldn't comprehend what had just happened. He threw her out of his apartment, or did she do it to herself?!
She pushed the buttons with her slim fingers and hugged herself, trying to calm her cold body and soul.
It ended in the end, and she was alone again....it was meant to end at one point, didn't it? Then why was he angry? And why was she sad?
Cemre knows why she was sad because she won't see him again, she got used to him, she was attached to him, she has feelings for him, this was the mistake she shouldn't have; however it wasn't in her hands not to fall for him, her heart just chose him.
Was he her bad habit or a good one? She can't tell anymore.
Why was he angry? He was the one who never asked or questioned her about anything, and she thought he was comfortable with it.
She was comfortable with it at some point too, but things changed, feelings started to be involved, but she never acted on them.
He seemed ok with the arrangement, the casual sex, and when he asked her if they could date other people, she couldn't reply; what she could have said?
That she has feelings for him, but he doesn't, that she wanted more, but there was no more to them, so she kept silent, and Cenk was determined about it.
And he proved it, the night she found him with a gorgeous blonde, Cemre just smiled and dragged her feet out with disappointment and sorrow.
Of course, a guy like him will want a real girlfriend, but not her. She wasn't girlfriend material.
She didn't stand a chance...
For two weeks, she tried not to think about him, busy herself with work; he already made his choice; they were only fuck buddies, nothing more.
And tonight, she couldn't stop her feet from dragging her to his door; she was losing sleep and peace without him. There was 50% of Cenk letting her in or out forever.
And when he said he wasn't dating, she couldn't hold herself from touching him, kissing him, and being in his arms again, even if it was just for one night.
The elevator door opened on the fifth floor, Cemre pulled herself out, and with broken steps, she walked to the end of the hallway, stopped in front of door 512, took her keys, and opened it.
She sighed, looking around her messy apartment that hadn't been clean for a week, dishes were on the sink, clothes were scattered everywhere, the dust never being brushed for a while, and she didn't have the time or energy to do it.
