NCT oneshots (boyxboy)

Jaehyun x Doyoung 🖤🔞

"I just want to be the one."
There was supposed to be no strings attached.

Doyoung stares at Jaehyun, the man in his bed. He analyzes every single detail on his face. Maybe, he could consider himself lucky. Well, if only. He stares at Jaehyun's lips. So pretty and pink, so kissable yet he's actually never felt those lips on his. He's felt them everywhere but his lips. Doyoung wasn't sure if there'd be a day Jaehyun finally allows him to kiss him or at least Jaehyun kiss him.

He'd do anything for at least just one kiss. Jaehyun was so close to him, yet so far.

"Done?"

Doyoung didn't realize how obvious his staring was. His cheeks were heating up from embarrassment.

Jaehyun gets out of bed and leaves to go to the bathroom. He comes back with a bowl of water and cloth. Jaehyun pulls the sheets off, revealing all the love marks on Doyoung's neck, chest, even his thighs. God, Jaehyun marked him like he was his when in reality he was nothing to Jaehyun.

Doyoung relaxs as he let's Jaehyun clean him up from their 3 hour sex session. The birds chirping and Jaehyun squeezing water out of the cloth is the only sound present as the two didn't say anything to each other.

It was always like this, silence after sex. Doyoung wished he could find the right words to say and he wished Jaehyun would talk to him. He felt like crying but kept it inside.

He murmurs a small thank you to Jaehyun before he gets up to go put on some boxers. Doyoung opens his closet and grabs some black jeans and a grey hoodie, putting them on. When he turns around, his heart drops as he sees Jaehyun already getting dressed in that signature suit of his.

Just as he's about to leave, Doyoung stops him. He asks him if he wants a cigarette before leaving. Jaehyun gives it some thought before nodding.

"Let's go to the balcony?" Doyoung suggests but it was more of a question, asking Jaehyun if he wanted to go on the balcony or somewhere else.

"Sure."

Doyoung grabs a pack of cigarettes from his drawer, taking one and handing it to Jaehyun before taking one for himself and a lighter.

They go onto the balcony. Doyoung lights Jaehyun's cigarette for him and then his as well.

Jaehyun inhales a lungful. "I think I should get home before my wife notices I'm gone." He says, blowing out the smoke.

Doyoung stays silent as he blows out smoke, his heart sinking at the mention of Jaehyun's wife. "You still care about her, huh?" Doyoung mutters. He just can't help but feel upset even though he has no right to.

"Jaehyun is married and I'm nothing." He reminds himselfs.

"Yeah, she's still my wife."

"She's cheating you with your secretary, Jae- hyun." Doyoung mentally curses as he nearly accidentally calls Jaehyun by nickname but it seems Jaehyun didn't notice.

"I'm cheating. It's fair."

"Both of you don't know that." Doyoung mutters even though he knew Jaehyun disliked talking about topics like this. He was pushing it, he knows but he felt bitter.

"Even so, I have to stay with her for business purposes. Her father has enough power to shut down the company and I can't let all my father's hard work on the lab go down the drain like that."

"Yeah, you're right. . ." Doyoung couldn't let his feelings get in the way of more important things.

"Do you still love her?" Doyoung asks. Jaehyun is quick to answer with a bold no. That's the only thing that has managed to give some sense of assurance and relief this early morning.

"I have to go now." Jaehyun drops the cigarette, stepping on it before turning to leave.

"Stay for another few minutes?"

"Can't." Jaehyun finally leaves, walking out the door like he does every morning. And like he does every morning, he leaves Doyoung unsure of when he'll see him again as Jaehyun never gave him his number or even any contact information.

Like every morning, Doyoung realizes he's in love with a man who wants nothing but sex from him.