you were good to me ❃

memory

i wander alone all the time,
i've become a ghost

lonely, vaguely raising my eyes out of the window, i reach for my phone again, reading our old texts, smiling bitterly to myself.

> ily
you're the best
even if you're dumb sometimes

🧍🏻<
im not dumb
just too smart for you to comprehend
january 10, 2020 |13:56

i laughed. i still remember, how you thanked me for getting you out of an awkward situation using my petty excuses.

i scrolled down further.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE <33🤍✨💕💖💞<

> tHANK YOU SO MUCH ILYSM 😭💕🤍🤍
may 7, 2020 | 10:10

i remember.. it was your first birthday together with me. i still recall you sneaking out at night to meet me. hah, i miss those times so much.

> happy sixth monthversary my gyu <33❤
im so thankful to have someone like you
and im glad you came into my life

ilysm :'(<
happy 6th monthversary to you too darling
let's spend this day together

get some sleep, you're gonna spend the rest of the day with me 🥰
july 5, 2020 | 00:01

i watched as i read more of our old texts, notiching your change of tone, how you became more disinterested as time passed.

how's my favorite person doing <3<
i miss you :(

> im fine wbu

tired. i want to see you rn<

> hm..
me too..

are you okay? <

>  yeah dw

but it looks like there's something bothering you. wanna talk?

hello?

sunshine?

are you there?

you're offline..

what's happening, i want to know too and help you :(<
august 1, 2020 |19:45

since that day, you started responding less, and late.

hate to remember those days, but everytime i called you, you didn't pick up. and we kept fighting over text.

i also wanted to visit you to check on you, but you insisted.

my hands kept on scrolling further, till it reached the point everything started to crumble.

🙄<

😑

🥱

🙄🙄

🥱‼️

😑🦶🏻

🚀🧍🏻🚗

> ... who hurt you

kang freaking taehyun!? <

> ????
do you even know him?!

yeah he's your smarty pants brother 🤡🤲🏻<

> what happened gyu

im jealous :cc<

> put that emoticon away first

then tell me why are you jealous of someone who doesn't even know you- 👧🏻

HE GETS TO TALK TO YOU
DAILY WHILE I DON'T

HE CAN SEE YOU EVERYDAY
HE CAN EVEN ANNOY YOU

BUT I CAN'T 😭🦶🏻

you don't even respond to me quickly :((<

> so it's that 😭-
i-

gyu.

im trying my best to respond to you on time.. its just.. sometimes, too many things flood my mind and i lose control

im sorry for making you feel like that.

there's things that are more important than me? <

what is it that you forget to text me back?

tell me honestly,
is there someone else?

> why would you assume that?
i already told you, there's a lot going on in my life right now.

im trying my best.

no, there's nobody. there's no one. and there will never be. baby, please forgive me. im terribly sorry for making you feel insecure.

would your sorry heal everything? <
i keep on trying and trying to make you a bit better but you just don't talk to me

what is it that's troubling you and why can't you tell me?

> i.. everytime i try to talk about it.. i can't..its too much

i was just joking earlier when i said im jealous but now I'm serious

have you gotten tired of me?

you used to tell me everything

now you don't even text me a single 'hi'

there we go again, you're not replying

im sick of this<

seen
november 27, 2020 | 16:30

that hurt

since then,

you started becoming more distant, and it hurted me a lot.

maybe I've a bit overreacted back there, but could you guess how I felt?

i started feeling more distant from you. i felt neglected. what was it that you couldn't share with me?

i wiped a tear that fell off my cheek

why did you choose to suffer in silence?

knowing the fact that you were probably suffering alone made me hurt more.

everything was going so well between us... but what went wrong?