Phone Calls

stay

I struggled to sleep last night. it was frustrating to say the least. our first proper phone call and I actually enjoyed it. like actually enjoyed. I had listened to his sappy playlist on loop till I could pass out but it wasn't for a while. he hung up at around 10. I didn't sleep till around 4. my heads ringing from the lack of sleep I've gotten because of...because of him. i stumbled into the kitchen and grabbed an apple and sat down. my mom had went to work but my brother was still here. i looked at him and he stood there laughing. i was mainly confused because i couldn't hear him laugh. AM I GOING DEAF?!?! then i felt the tug on my ears from my ear phones due to my brother pulling on them.

"you really slept with those things in huh?" he said almost cackling. his annoying laugh sent spicks of pain to my ears and i rested my head on the table trying to block out the noise. as he ruffled my hair i looked up at him. he had a star on his face. i wonder if he will have stars on his face today, i hope he has hearts again. i wish i could just have a normal conversation with him. i felt a flick on my nose. although the swelling and bruising had gone down. it still really heart like hell. "ouch, what the hell man, why would you do that for."

"you were staring at me. i thought it was weird. what's on your mind bro clearly it something." he sat next to me with a smoothie that he pushed towards me.

i just shrugged and began drinking the smoothie. he looked at my face intensely trying to see signs.

"is it because you're off the soccer team?" I didn't respond I'm not too proud of being kicked to the bench but its not too bad since its kind of helping me focus on the studying and....

"is it a girl? or a boy i don't judge" I felt a nudge on my arm. i chocked slightly and i think my smoothie went through my nose. I heard his laughing and my nose was on fire. i didn't know what to say or do in the moment. " no freaking way my little brother has a crush omg. tell me about them, are they cute? what's there name? are you in the same classes? come one bro tell me!" i was too dazed to respond and I just escaped his grip and grabbed my bag. "i don't have a crush tom, im going school I'm gonna be late." i stuck my ear phones in and hit shuffle on his playlist. i jumped into my car and headed to school....the song was called stay.

"aint it sad when you miss a closing door, turn around have to wait for something more dum dada dada dadum" i sang along to the lyics as i drove. it was a nice tune.

"it gets me mad that i left it all too late, swept in the breeze, now i watch it drift away, dum dada...dada...da...dum." i stopped singing and just listened.

So you can find me

The tallest building in the tallest city

And I will build a ladder to the rooftops

Screaming from my lungs, "I'm sorry, I messed up"

So darling won't you stay here?

I promise I can change

And darling if you stay here

It won't be a mistake "mark....

I know every conversation, it always ends the same

So darling if you stay here

I'll find the words I couldn't say

Oh, but only if you stay

Truth be told, I'm a mess when you're away

And I'm afraid you make me pay for my mistakes

Dum dada dada dadum

So you can find me

The tallest building in the tallest city

And I will build a ladder to the rooftops "MARK!!!!"