Stupid shit I think of...

Late & tired nights

Another night of just sitting in bed wondering what life could be.

It's so tiring to constantly having to mold myself to what I feel like others will like...
It's so tiring constantly having to care especially when you are a tiny speck of nothing on this rotating rock in space.

Especially when you're just so tired. You sleep and sleep but never wake up feeling refreshed, energetic or even happy. Everyone just thinks you're lazy but you're sad, you're depressed.

You can feel yourself falling apart again and again and again... the glue holding you together got wet and you are once more breaking into the pieces you thought you had crammed together.

Another night of laying in bed trying to breathe, trying to keep yourself together. Isn't anyone else tired?

You just feel like there isn't enough air to breathe...

You can feel it... you're hanging on by a thread and it's going to snap under all the weight that comes with existing... and not wanting to go on....

And no one gets that you're scared...