Bella's Pov
Sighed loudly, I was all alone in my room reading a book I wanted to give up using it i didn't want it to be worse I wanted to let go but i just can't.
I parshaly slammed the book in the wall next to me.
" 𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘐 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘹𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵!" She screamed Her head was banging in the inside as she got more anxious she felt that she couldn't breathe.
She closed the door behind her shut ran towards the boys room's knocked on one of the doors.
"𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦- 𝘉𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘢 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 1:00 𝘢𝘮 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦?" He whispered harshly "𝘍𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘪 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸" The Door shut infront of her face she groaned in annoyance at his lovers acts, she was about to leave when the door slightly opened again with a hand holding a sachet of powder of which she knows what it was "𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬'𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘦" she grabbed it fron the mans hands "𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘨𝘰 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶"
he sternly said "𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬𝘴 𝘣𝘺𝘦" as he holded the door "𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶" he said as the door was now completely shut.
She nearly tripped while running down the hall to her shared dorm opening the door aggressively as she couldn't wait to something.
As she got to her room and slammed the door shut again and jumped to the bed and placed the powder on her side table making it in a straight line and sniffing it all with her left nose while holding the other side of her nose she faced the ceiling closing her eyes as it stung his nose a bit and seconds.
She felt wobbly and everything was blurry she laid down closing her eyes as she seemed to see the thing she wanted smiling
All of her problems sought to dissapear and the only thing she could see was a field of lovely dandelions and a swing she felt euphoric this was her world this is what she wanted the peace and grace that the powder gave to her giving her freedom to every burden she felt
This was her world he owned it every part of it, to every single petals of the dandelions to the nails of the swing everything it was her's nothing could ever go wrong in her safe place. But that didn't last long her world was getting blurry again as the effect of the powder has now fled off.
After he sniffed a thin life of it again and closed her eyes but this time her mind was clouded to all torture her mother had brought her everytime their father wasn't home everytime her brother wasn't their she simply loathed her to her figure, face to her voice and her soul but she didn't know why.
She wanted to forget everything because after everything and in the end of the day she was still her mother.
"𝘯𝘰, 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱, 𝘯𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱! 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱!" she shouted as the scene flashed through her mind the day she was full of blood it was christmas but it wasn't as happy as ever that 1 week alone with her mother was hell to her.
As every hit of the little chair was bruising her legs, to her chest, back and her head pounding and aching as it drips blood and after she was being pulled to the cellar locked by her mother.
"𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘪𝘭𝘵𝘩𝘺 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮" she spat at her "𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺" she said holding a grim on her face "𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘦" her mother said it all
But she didn't hate her not even a bit because she knew her mother loved her as she said it was another way of loving, Abuse, torture, pain, bruises and cuts, hate words everything, it was a another kind of love.
Oh how kind she was for her to never seemed to understand it wasn't love at all but hatred full of it.
She couldn't take it she wouldn't accept it because she said to herself everyday that her mother loved her but no it was all a lie and deep within herself she needed help those pewder could never be enough one day to forget the world. It will never be enough when the day come and when it does she could end up losing her life.
She needed help, someone who could ease her worries without powders and illegal things just to make her feel safe, but warmth, care, and love by another person.
That's what she needed.
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783 words not bad for a story lol well see you in the next chapter.
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Fanfiction"𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯" (DISCONTINUED) On a serious note, my plans for this story was by far more interesting than it turned out to be.
