Ik this might totally seem like mind rant book
Which it might be
But idk how else to take it out of me
I'm so tired of hiding this dark secret now
Only a few people know, but I can't hold it in anymore
If people know, they'll end up just like me
I have to be strong.... for my family and friends like everyone tells me....
I have to be strong so the "friends" don't take it out on me
Yet I want to cry every fucking minute
But I can't because then I'll seem weak
I have to seem strong.... only I can't
I was told a thousand times I'm worth it
But also a million times I was pointed at
But also ten million times I was teased
But also a hundred million times I was used by "friends"
But also a thousand million times I was bullied because of my "fake" sexuality, my countries, ny fandoms
But also a billion times I was left out, the least important one in the group
But also a hundred billion times I was told to fuck off
But also a thousand billion times I was told, I'm useless, worthless, now that I know I should destroy my useless body from this world.
It just hurts so much..... and hiding it hurts even more.....
