My smut to help me write (18+)

A crush part 1 - Girl pov

The whole gang sat in Adam's and Steven's dorm room. We were playing Nintendo Switch, Mario kart on their TV. The couple of the group were sharing a controller but they were not playing.

Their kart were parked at the start. They sat on Adam's bed and sloppily made out. The gross sounds filled the room and took over the sound of the game. Julie leaned on my back and laughed occasionally when she drove past someone. Adam was the last of us three but still kept trying.

Adam started his second lap and we finished our third. "Hey, I am in front of you now." He laughed.

"You are a lap past us," our vehicles drove past his motorbike on either side.

"Oh," Adam said with a disappointed look, "but I am not last at least." This seemed to light his face up.

"No, Melanie and Steven are behind you." We laughed again and Melanie's arm flew out and hit my head.

"Ow," I pushed them and she started to giggle into Steven's mouth. He hushed her but continued to suck on her lips.

"Fucking hell," Adam groaned and stood up. He shoved Steven so both of them fell to the floor. "My bed," he pointed to his bed, "your bed," he pointed to the bed above it. Julie laughed out loud. I finished the race and the other races ended too.

Steven, Melanie and Julie stood up like on cue. "Shall we go now?" Julie asked. My eyebrows shot up but nobody noticed.

"Sure, there is only a little while left," Julie happily skipped out of the room and the others followed.

"Where are you going?" My voice was weak.

"We are going bowling and you can only be four people and we didn't want anyone to feel left out. Plus, you don't want to go bowling anyways, right?" I stood up and tried to contain my tears.

"Right." I simply stated. Melanie waved at me and disappeared. I stared at the floor.

"Can you go back to your room? I have to lock this one." Steven crossed his arms.

"Of course, sorry." He muttered something under his breath as I walked past him.

I stepped into my dorm and sat down on my bed. Tears trickled down my cheek and I quickly wiped them away. "Are you alright?"

The voice scared me and made me jump so that I hit my head in Julie's bed. My hand flew up to my head to hold the sore spot. "What are you doing here?"

I looked at him with tear filled eyes. Adam rushed to my side and gave me a comforting hug. "I am so sorry, Lilith."

He didn't say anything else, he didn't have to. After a few minutes my tears stopped. "Why are you here?" My voice was uneven.

"Would you like me to leave?" I could not see his face but I could hear the smile in his voice.

"No, it was really nice of you to come here but should you not be away bowling now?"

He shrugged before he spoke, "I thought it was really rude of them to not invite you so I ditched them."

I leaned away from his strong arms to look at his face, "You were not in on it?"

He scrunched up his face, "Absolutely not, I thought you had declined the offer." I have no good excuse for what I did next.

I leaned forward and pressed my lips to his in a forceful kiss. I could feel him stare at my closed eyes but I was too much in the moment to care. I took his face in my hands without thinking about it.

For a second I thought he was kissing me back but then his soft hands grabbed on to my wrists in the lightest motion. He pushed them away from his face.

I jumped back when I realized what he was doing and a wave of shame flushed over me. "I'm so sorry," I cupped my hands over my face in an attempt to hide my tomato-colored cheeks.

"Why did you do that?" His voice was steady and controlled.

"I-I don't know," I stuttered.

He exhaled sharply, "You can't do that, Lilith." I looked up at him and saw that he was staring at me. "I wouldn't be able to control myself."

I let my hands drop to my sides, "What?"

"God Lilith, you are so clueless of the control you have over me." I gaped at him, this could not be real. He placed his hands lightly on my cheeks and stared into my eyes.

His brown eyes stared into mine before he seemed to make a decision, "Fuck." The simple word got my skin trickling. He pressed his soft lips against mine but now it was my turn to be confused.

I closed my eyes and breathed in the sweet smell of him. His hands traveled down my body and stopped at my waist. I wrapped my arms around his neck and grabbed his hair.

He pulled me closer to him and flipped us around. I was now under him and his body heat was flowing down on me.

His tongue flicked at my lip and I moved my hand to the hem of his shirt. He took a deep breath and sat up.

I laid there, confused and wanting more. He pulled his shirt over his head to reveal his chest. The smooth skin reflected the dim light in the corner a little.

He leaned down again and licked his lips, he looked hungry. I pressed my lips to his and he continued down to my neck.

In one swift motion he pulled off my shirt, I felt naked and out of place. I tried to cover my chest with my hands.

He stopped and looked me in my eyes. Then he stood up and started taking off his pants and socks.

If I would have written everything in the same part it would have been too long so I separated it instead.

I realised when I wrote this that I am writing straight smut... I am not straight. I don't know how to write any other smut since this is what they teach in school, lol.

I know nobody is reading this but it feels more natural to write as if somebody does.

The next part will probably be posted tomorrow or the day after that.

Have a good day :)