The good feeling of everyone I used to have,completely flipped around.
My dark mindset taking over.
Every number of horrible moments filling my head,memories flowing of what has happened over the years.
Facial Dysmorphia,severe anxiety disorder,major depressive disorder and PTSD filling my veins as I can't get rid of these mental issues.nothing has ever been able to fix it,the happiness of me slowly dying and my life wanting the die with it.
I can't fix everything that happened ...neither can I change what's happening now.
My abusive step dad,my real dad who I've never met and is a hard drug addict,my brother who's been in and out of prison since he was a teenager,the kids at the school I used to go to before being homeschooled,torturing me everyday,my mom who I've never been close with,the one person I should feel able to tell everything to,doesn't even know how I feel everyday,my sister who's been by my side for years is a senior and is leaving for the military soon,my online friends who never talk to me anymore,everyone I love leaves.
My life never getting to be to the point it's ok.
Suicidal thoughts taking over my brain.
The bathtub filled with scolding hot water in which I submerge my body just feel something other than my life,the hot water melting everything away.
Will what I feel ever go away?
Or is it just stuck with me forever?
Forever.
Forever..
Forever...
Forever....?
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The Hatred :story of me
Non-FictionThis story is about me,everything that happened and happens to me,it's easy to say my life is pretty bad,not like most,never had that childhood most talk about and have,everything is lost and forgotten what I used to believe is buried,burned,hated...
