But as time went by I adjusted to always fighting. I found a few friends but none of them would ever understand so I kept my depression to myself. These girls were amazing friends. Whenever Savannah would try to hurt me they would always be there to defend me. But this wasnt enough to put me out of my misery when every time i walked down the hallway I got an ugly glare.
My mom finally got rid of Brandon so I decided to try living with her. It would mean a new start at a new school and nobody would need to know how weak I really was.But this also meant that i was back to being the new kid. The summer before I started going to that school I got a facebook. I felt horrible that i had messed up one of my friends that stuck up for me's friendship. I told her i would do anything and she asked me to talk to Hope, the girl that she had the ruined friendship with, to see if she would talk to her. I finally got up the nerves and did. Hope told me no that she wouldnt talk to her. But it was the second message that surprised me. She had said that she would talk to me though.
We talked and talked and talked. She had come to realize who Savannah really was. Over time Hope and I developed a friendship again. It would show later that it could never be the same but it was still a friend.
The school year started and I made new friends but I was always a little distant. Eventually over time I decided who to let in. Some of them would end up not being the best of friends but a lot of them were really kind to me and I really enjoyed hanging out with them.
Hope and I never lost contact though... Now that we had that friendship back we held on to it for dear life. We would have fights and though she became one of my best friends our friendship would never prove to be able to be the same, but it would be just as good just in a different way.
