Ouch. It hurts. Too much pain.
My world is a completely mess. From myself in to the society. I'm mentally lost.
I had a lot of achievements from my studies but those aren't enough to make me happy. I wasn't force to study hard, it was my choice. Cause I once believe that studying is the only thing that would help me to make my future better.
I had believed in too many fantasies that now, it is hard to face the reality behind those.
"Celestine... I can't! Papa is dead!" My mom broke into tears as she heard that news from the call of my aunt.
I hugged her tightly as I continued to comfort her, tears were flowing in my sight. My Lolo is dead. My one and only Lolo that was alive. He left me without saying any messages. It broke me down but I didn't mind. There's nothing special in me to be informed or something.
Syempre, agad kaming dumalaw ni Mommy kila Lolo pagkatapos malaman yon. Lolo onced told me that my mom was his favourite kaya grabe ang emotion na dala ni mommy.
"Mommy, stop crying. Lolo wouldn't want to see that." I comforted my Mom.
Sila lang ang natatanging pamilya ko. My dad was an asshole and I don't want to see him anymore.
After few years, I started to study in college. Habang pinu-pursue ko ang pangarap ko, doon naman nagkanda letse ang buhay ko. My closest cousin had faded without any trace. Naging problema iyon ng amin pamilya tas namatay ang kapatid ko. Dad was admitted to the hospital because he's sick. Kahit na kinamumunhian ko sya, ama ko pa rin naman sya. I was bothered by that, hinihintay nya ako pero wala akong balak na puntahan sya.
"Aish!" Namali ako ng minarkahan sa aking binabasa. Ang tanga naman. I've been awake for 26 hours now. Nagbabasa pa rin ng mga cases. I pursued Law in college kaya mas challenging ang journey ko ngayon.
"Kailangan ko na atang magpahinga." Ani ko at inayos ang aking mga gamit. Nandito ako sa isang library ng aming school. Madilim na ngunit marami pa rin ang nakatambay rito.
Nang makalabas sa skwelahan ay pumunta ako sa hintayan ng bus. Nang may dumaan na bus, agad akong pumasok at nirest ang aking katawan. Antok na antok ako kaya natulog muna ako ng ilang sandali.
"Miss! Miss!" Naramdaman kong may tumatapik sa aking sarili kaya napamulat agad ako para tignan iyon. I saw a man, wearing a thick eyeglass, facemask and hoodie.
"Huh?"
"Saan ka mag s-stop? Kanina ka pa dito sa bus, nakarating na tayo sa iba't ibang street." Sabi niya at nagulat ako doon.
Gagi. Hala. Nalampasan na!
"Nasaang street na tayo?" Nataranta ako. May pupuntahan pa sana ako. Ba't ba kasi ako nakatulog? Jusko.
"Manuel Street."
Ang layo na. Di bale, bababa nalang ako dito. Tumayo ako sa aking upuan, dala-dala ang gamit at bumababa sa waiting shed. Pansin kong sumunod yung lalake kanina. I stopped walking and looked at him.
"Hey Mr. Hoodie!" Sigaw ko sakanya. He looked at me, wondering why I called him.
"Familiar ka dito sa Lugar na ito? Patulong naman oh."
"Alright, Miss." Aniya at naglakad papunta sa akin.
"Paturo yung hotel dito. Gusto ko nang magpahinga." Sabi ko at sinundad ang paglalakad niya.
Nang makarating kami ay agad akong nagpasalamat. I thought he would go home but to my shock, he also took a room beside mine.
"I'm too tired to go home." He said when he felt my curiosity. I nodded at his response.
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You and I ( A Tales Of My Dreams)
De TodoON-GOING Changing in our own aspects of life... In our thoughts, being affected of discriminations and such complications, we tend to put ourselves in isolation. A compilation of my story scenarios and literature. For how I longed to feel thy peac...
