Deleterious

chapter 20

INDIGOS POV:

Three weeks.

Three whole weeks since the party. Three whole weeks since i haven't been home. Three whole weeks without seeing Nate. And three whole weeks where i didn't go to school. Mostly because i didn't want to see him.

The first week was bad. I stayed in Fez apartment on the couch. I didn't move or say much. I didn't eat and i don't think i even slept. Once i haven't came home in three days my parents reported me missing, so people came to Fez apartment during the first week.

Not people i knew personality, they just wanted to be seen.

The second week was fine. I was over the Nate and Maddy drama. I even took my first shower since being there. Went to check on my sister during her lunch and she was pissed and happy to see me. Pissed because she thought something happened. I assured her i was fine and to not tell mom and dad.

She told me that during my first week of treating myself bad, Nate would drive past the house. Sometimes he'd knock and other times he would just sit in his truck, across the street waiting.

The third week was great. I fixed breakfast for Fez and his little brother, "ashtray" and even got to know more about why do they sell drugs and why can't ash have a normal childhood. They haven't been selling lately since cops are outside this apartment daily.

"You sure you don't need anything while we're out?" Fez asks.
"Im sure. Be safe!" I wave them off as they close the door behind them. My weeks have been surrounded by those two boys that now, i don't know what to do. Maybe i could clean up?

I shouldn't do that. The man of the household as told me not to touch anything that i had no business touching. I obey that rule. It wasn't my house and i wasn't going to do anything that could make me go back home.

As soon as i lift off the door, someone knocks on it. Who is at the door? I was told never to answer the door because i didn't know who or what was on the other side. But what if it was important? I knew it wasn't Fez or Ash because they both of keys. The screen door is locked anyway so i could open it and be safe.

I took deep breath and hesitantly turned the knob. I took a breath before pulling the door back, exposing someone i didn't want to see.

NATES POV:

For three weeks i have been losing my mind. After Indigos parents reported her missing, i had told them that the neighborhood drug dealer, Fezco, had dropped her off and picked her up from the party.

The police went to his apartment but they ultimately left due to not enough evidence. Fez has gotten smarter where he hides things. But i know she's here, where else would she be?

The first week, i stalked outside of her house, in hopes that she'll be back. But by the second week, i knew she wasn't coming back, so i stalked outside of Fezco apartment.

Every time he was going i wanted to break the door down and drag her out, but his little brother was there. I have beef with Fezco but Ashtray is cool so he didn't deserve to see the damage i could cause.

Though, this time Fezco left and his brother was right behind him. This was my chance, a chance to see her, take her back with me and get her home. Once Fezcos cato pulls out the lot, i make my way up the stairs knock on the door.

I can feel it in my bones that she's here and i won't leave until she answers the door. I slip my hands in my pocket, waiting on her to answer the door and a few seconds pass before i see her, on the other side of the door.

Wearing only a purple tank top with a bear on it and some white panties. Why is she wearing so little clothing? Especially around Fezco, a drug dealer. Was he slutting her out? Was she his new whore? I wanted to ask her why is she wearing these clothes. Probably scream at her and call her words but i decided against it.

"Hey." I said, taking all of her in.
"What do you want?"
"I miss you." I say much too quickly. She doesn't respond, she just stares at me.
"Can you say something?" I awkwardly chuckle.

"What are you doing here Nate?" The door is now widely open, the only thing separating us is the screen door. I want to break it down, i want to tear it off it's hinges and drag her back with me, but i don't.

"Can i come in?"
"Fez isn't going to like that."
"Would you rather him deal with me or the cops?" I said as i leaned back to see a cop car riding around the area. She rolls her eyes and sigh at the same time before opening the screen and allowing me to step inside.

"I would offer you something but Fez told me not to touch anything. Can't even use the bathroom without Ashtray on my ass." She says as she sits on the couch and i take the sit next to her.

"How have you been?" I ask, trying to ease into the conversation that neither of us want to have.
"Good."
"Why haven't you went home?"
"Don't know."
"Why haven't you texted me?"
"No phone."

"Can you give me something else besides this short answers?"
"No." She says as she stands across from me.
"Come on Indigo, im trying here."
"Please, don't."

I stand to my feet try to hold her but she pushes me away. God damnit why does she keep pushing me away? Doesn't she see that im trying to talk with her. To make her understand me and my feelings.

"Why are you being so distant?" I ask.
"You fucked Maddy and basically told me that me and you, was all in my head."
"Im sorry Indigo, it was the drugs i swear." I say and she scoffs at me.

"The drugs?" She questions me and i nod. "You had your dick in someone after getting ready to fuck me. Then when i catch you, you convince me that all of us, me and you, was in my head and now you're blaming the drugs?" She says and i nod again.

"And then if it happens again what else will you blame? Lack of attention? Drinking? Your fucked up family?" She spits at me.
"There won't be a next time." I say, meaning it. "You got all of me fully."

"Nate, i never had any of you." She whispers to me as she folds her arms in front of her chest. "Maddy as you, all of you completely. Im not going to try to compete with her. I didn't have you and i don't think i ever will."

Is she crazy? She's always had me. Even if i wasn't sure, even if Maddy was talking bullshit in my ear, even when i didn't and i still don't know her. She has me. Completely.

INDIGOS POV:

I am right in a way. I won't fight over a boy i didn't have. I dislike Maddy for the wrong reasons and that's my fault for letting Nate cloud my judgement.

"I think you should go." I say, finally listening to the inner voice who also told me not to let Nate in.
"What? Why?!"
"I don't want you here. You don't need to be here."
"But i want to be here."
"It's too late for what you want."

"Indigo-"
"Stop calling my name and get the fuck out." I snap at Nate. But he doesn't move. It's like his feet are stuck to the floor. He looks me up and down before giving me the biggest smirk ever.

"What are you wearing?" He points to my outfit.
"Why does it matter?
"It matters if you're underage slutting yourself out to a grown man, who also happens to be a drug dealer." Nate shrugs,
"Well good thing im not."
"Police won't see it that way."

Nates words are slow and sinister. His words are sending chills up and down my spine and making the hairs on my neck stand up. The way his talking is the way psychopaths talk. He was trying to turn this into something that it's not but i don't understand why.

"Nate, what are you saying?"
"Im saying, if you don't leave with me right now, Fez goes down for being a fucking creep. Do you want that to happen?" He says as he gets closer and closer until there's now space between us. His hands grip my shoulder and i shake my head no at his question.

"Then go put some clothes on and let's get out of here." He whispers and kisses my forehead. His touch is making me uneasy but i care too much about Fez to let him go down over me being a silly teenager. Nevertheless, i obey Nates orders.

What a dumb decision, i know. But Nates words seem less like threats and more like a promise. Im just too scared to find out which it was.