Deleterious

chapter 31

Waking up to the smell of bacon is always a good thing. It means you have done something right in your life to wake up to such a pleasant smell. Unless you're me and forget to go home last night. I popped up my head with Nates sheet barley covering my body.

Nate wasn't in bed with me and his bathroom door was opened, so i assumed he was downstairs eating with his family. I grabbed my shirt and my pants and pulled them up and over my body. I put on my shoes, grabbed my phone and head downstairs.

"Hey." Nate says as hes at the bottom of the stairs and im at the top.
"Hi." I say and walk down the rest of the stairs.

"My mom made breakfast, you want some?"
"I would love to but my parents are probably worried suck. I told them i was going to be home last night." I sigh.

"Oh, do you need a ride?"
"No, ill just walk ill be fine." I say and give him a quick kiss on the cheek. "Bye Nate." I say and walk out the door.

The morning air wet and smooth, seems like it had rained last night. I always loved the morning air, it was the type of air that could cleared all the noises in my head. Morning air was rare and it shouldn't be taking advantage of.

I made my way home quick, quicker than last night somehow. I didn't bother trying to use the front door. I didn't want to get in trouble for losing track of time. Which is something i always seemed to do when it came to Nate.

Instead, i climbed through my window. It was hard at first but once my feet touched the soft carpet of my room, it was easy. Once inside my room, i quickly took off my clothes and slipped on a night grown. My hair was messy and i already looked tired so i didn't need to do anything there.

I walked out of my room and made it downstairs. My parents looked at me in surprise. Like they knew i wasn't upstairs so how did i come from upstairs.

"You were upstairs?" My dad says.
"Yeah, why wouldn't i be?" I say in my fake sleepy voice.

"We checked and you weren't there." My mom says.
"Maybe you didn't look hard enough." I say clearing my throat.

"What's for breakfast anyway?" I ask.
"Cereal." My dad says and puts a box of fruit loops on the table.

"Nates coming over." I tell them. "Is that okay?" I say and reach for a bowel.
"I thought y'all broke up." My mom says.

"We got back together." I say as i pour the cereal into the bowel. My parents look at each other before looking at me.

"So is it okay?" I ask and pour the milk in my bowel.
"Yeah that's fine." My mom says.
"As long as there no sex going on." My dad says.

"I don't do that." I tell him. I eat my cereal and i watch my mom fix my dads tie before kissing him. Even though they both walk out at the same time. It has me wondering, could Nate and I ever have that?

Probably. I believe we could. I believe that we could start our own family and become obsessed with each other like moms and dads usually are. But what if he can't ever love me like i love him?

What if he hurts me like he did after the game? What if he abuses me in all ways he could think of just because he can't love me? I feel sick to my stomach as i say this and maybe i should run from Nate. But i can't.

He has me, he has all of me. Even if i didn't want him to. And maybe i didn't have all of him, but i had him and that's enough for me. I sat at the table and pulled my phone out to see a message from Nate.

"Can i still come over?" He says with a winky emoji.
"Yes." I say with a smile emoji. He likes my message and i can sense that the conversation is over. I put my phone down and finish off my bowel of cereal.

Once im finish and put my bowel in the sink, there's a knock at the door. I walk over, expecting Nate but it's Cassie, who looks like she has been crying non-stop. She doesn't give me time to react before she's wrapping her self around me.

"Cass, are you okay?" I say and wrap my arms around her. I could feel her nod behind me. "You just don't look okay. I mean, you're gorgeous but..." I trial off as she releases me and looks me in my eyes. Her blue eyes are watery, dark circles stain her eyes and her hair is a wild mess.

"It's...it's my dad." She tells me. I knew about her childhood with her parents. She told me when she was drunk and barley remembers it. But i think she's just trying to tell herself that because she thinks i will judge her.

"What happened?" I say as i open the door wider for her to come in. She walks in and instantly sits on the couch.

"He uh...they find him overdosed on the sidewalk early this morning." She says and i can't ignore her voice cracks as she says these words. "Oh Cass..."I say in a barley there voice.

I walk over to the couch and sit next to her. I place her head on my shoulder as i wrap myself around her. I didn't know how close her and her dad was, but rather they was close her not, he fucked her up and now im sure he made it worse.

I can't tell you how long we sat there but i didn't mind it. Cassie needed a shoulder and she has been my best friend since last semester. I was hurting seeing her hurt knowing i couldn't do anything about it.

I wouldn't call her my only friend, but she was my best friend and i loved like an older sister. The doorbell rings and i slowly unwrapped myself from Cassie.

"Who is it?" She asks me.
"Probably Nate." I say to her.
"Nate?!" She says and practically jumps up. I look at her for a second before opening the door. Nate is on the other side with some food in his hand.

"The drinks are in the truck." He smiles at me.
"You shouldn't have."
"Well, how else am i going to have fun with my girl?" He says and kisses me on the cheek. When he steps in, he basically freezes up when he sees Cassie.

"Babe, what is she doing here?" He asks me.
"We were talking."
"About?" He says too fast.
"Something happened with her dad. Why?"
"Nothing. Can you get the drinks out the truck? I have to take a piss."
"Yeah sure." I say and he hands me the keys.

It was weird seeing Cassie and Nate freeze up like that. I mean i get Cassie, she practically just got traumatized by the same person who is already to blame for her trauma.

NATES POV:

"Did you tell her?" I ask Cassie, but of course she doesn't answer me. "Did you fucking tell her?" I raise my voice a little.

"No." She says in barley a whisper.
"Good. Let's keep it that way."
"Why?" She says. "What if i want to tell her?"
"You won't tell her though."
"And why won't I?"

"You already lost Maddy when you started being friends with Indigo. You can't afford to lose her too. You know this."

"Is it me who can't afford to lose her or is it you?" She says to me. The door opening stops me from slapping Cassie and i turn around to see the girl of my dreams.

She's in a night grown, which is sorta ugly but somehow, it's pretty on her. Her afro hair is a mess and despite her darkskin, you can still she the dark circles around her eyes.

"Okay, i got the drinks." She smiles at me. "What are we watching?"
"Whatever you want to watch." I tell her.

"I can go." Cassie says.
"No don't go." Indigo says and i look at her. "Hang with me and Nate?" She says as she pushes her lip out to make the pouty face.

"Oh, i dont-"
"It'll be fun, i promise." Indigo says with her cute adorable pouty face.
"Fine." Cassie sighs. "But only if it's okay with Nate." She says and they both look at me.

No matter how much i want Cassie to kick rocks, it's important to Indigo that she stays for whatever reason. And i don't want to cause any attention to me and Cassie that could make Indigo speculate anything.

"Yeah sure, it's okay with me." I say. Cassie looks confused as Indigo kisses her cheek. But at least i won't suffer in this alone.