Permission to Love

10-Final

"Why would I?" Hoseok growls lowely at Jin, knowing that he is the man that has Sora now. "Because you guys broke up so long ago. Sora has no feelings for you anymore so stay away from her, stop trying to get in her heart again." Jin barks back. "Sora's mine now, and not yours. So don't even think about trying to make her sway to your side anymore. You had your chance and you blew it. I'm not going to let you blow mine." Hoseok looks surprised at Jin. She told him about us? He wonders and recomposes himself quickly. "Yours, you say? Don't let me laugh. She has given her heart to me multiple times while we were dating, so I still hold it. I don't need to try and get it again, I still got it." "She gave her heart to me now, body and mind, all of it is mine." Jin threatens back. Hoseok can feel the sting in the words when he mentioned body and mind, but smiles. "And still I think I still got her heart." He ends the discussion there. He pulls his arm out of Jin's hands and smirks before straightening his sleeve and walking off. Jin is left behind, fuming in anger but still thinking he has won.

Sora is getting compliments about her glow, and frankly, after last night, her body felt divine. Loved. It's been so long since something like that happened to it, so it must be that. She sighs and walks to the garden, since it is evening already and thus calmer in the hotel. She breathes in the fresh air and looks at the noise. Hoseok is choosing today to do an outdoors session. The VIP customers are working out a sweat and as usual Hoseok is his perfect self, in full control of his whole body. Even if he has grown older, he still looks like a god. Sora is staring at him for a few minutes, letting her mind drift away. She can feel the wind take up and shivers. She turns around to go inside. Hoseok can smell her perfume in a sudden gust of wind and looks up. He can see her walk away. He instructs the people to take a break and runs after her.

They are at the fountain and the lights are on. "Sora!" He yells out to her. She keeps walking until he grabs her wrist again and turns her. "Sora." He says and she looks at him. "I have Jin now. And I'm finally at the place I need to be." She shoots him down. "I know that. But still. I think what I need, and you too probably, is closure." She stops pulling at her arm and stands with him out of her own volition, gesturing to him he can go on.

"I-I'm sorry. I'm sorry I was that selfish and childish. I should have supported you more like you supported me.But I was just that worried. I didn't want you to suffer. I knew how much that job meant but I couldn't handle you suffering. You took me as a burden, you endured so much at work and I thought you were just holding on because of me. And used that 'dream' as an excuse. Who else would endure men touching you, molesting you, being treated like sh*t all the time, if not for money." Somewhere Sora understands but yet she doesn't. "This isn't all about you, you know. I didn't work to sustain you, I worked for my dream. I was being serious. You were no burden to me." "Come on! I saw you give me fancy food, and you yourself skipping meals. You sacrificed for me!" "Well, I did that because I love you, and I didn't want you to feel bad. Also you needed it more. Dancing was intense." At this point both are screaming at each other in front of the fountain. "I love-no loved you too much!" She shouted. "Well, I loved-no love you so much!" Hoseok's voice grows softer and he grabs her by her shoulders. "I still love you so much." Hearing those words made Sora's heart melt inside.

He closes his eyes and pulls her towards him for a kiss.His taste, his touch, it is all so familiar for her. Her hands slowly go up and she places them on his arms, at first to pull them off her, but soon she loses all strength and gives into the kiss. She closes her eyes and kisses him back, not able to hold back the feelings that resurfaced after so long.

Hoseok can feel her kissing him back and relaxes his shoulders. It all feels so good like it did before again. He doesn't want to break up the kiss, but they need to talk. "We were both young, impulsive... It was too soon for us. But I want to try it again, now, from today on. Please, Sora, you are the only one I ever loved or am loving so dearly. It kills me inside to see you move on. Tell me you didn't move on. Tell me you still love me..." Hoseok begs. Sora bites her lip. "I did love you for 7 years, but I have just stopped. I'm sorry..." But Hoseok doesn't accept that answer. "I know you still love me. You kissed me back." Sora can't deny that. "But I'm with Jin now... Hoseok, he's perfect for me." Hoseok bites his lip now. "Don't you think I know that? But ask yourself honestly: nobody is perfect, so that means that perfection isn't real. What we had wasn't perfect, but so were we. And will always be. Don't you think that even if something is perfect, it isn't right? We are meant to be imperfect. Everything in life is." Sora is doubting. "And in our imperfection lies the true beauty of it all." Hoseok says.