Thank You, Heartbreak

TYH

I cried a lot whether I feel my heart tearing apart or not
I screamed for help
But the help that I was waiting was your soft hand
I was waiting for it to hold mine
and tell me that everything is going to be fine

Everybody came but they're not you
so instead of entertaining them,
I choose to entertain myself while waiting for you

Many people tried coming into my life
but the doors are closed
and the walls are high
the free pass was only for you
in the door, I am waiting for you

But you never came
as the night deepens
Dangers are waiting
Because after removing the mask that you gave
I found myself with a blank face

Now that I'm not your girl anymore,
Who am I?
I tried finding myself at the middle of the night
but the dark just made everything hard
and that's when I realized,
I am so invested on you
that I forgot who am I
if I am not with you

Someone break through the door I created
My heart troubled when I realized
I am smiling for someone that's not you
but he was giving me fun
until I realized you did it too

I build a new home away from everyone
Somewhere where you can find me waiting for you like you're someone special
But the same man found me like how I wished you would
He tried pursuing me but before I went with him
the heartbreak you caused reminded me.

" What's his intention? " it asked
that made me wonder and sought through his past
only to find out that he's just going to use me
so before I hold his hand,
I ran away.

I am now in somewhere peaceful
Continuesly building myself after realizing that the part of me
who I thought was me left with you
and now, I am slowly becoming better
realizing how much is my worth
and what should it takes to a man to get through my heart.

So thank you for the heartbreak you caused.
It broke me apart but now I am getting my breakthrough

Healing was never easy
But the heartbreak you caused me reminded me
" It was a continues process and I am here to remind you.
Take care of your heart first
Before taking care of others'
By this, you will be healed
And also helped you to avoid another set of breakdowns
trust yourself then get proud
for the product of  loving yourself
is being someone everyone never thought you'll become "