Abis: "You are not a monster. And you never will be."

The thoughts

(Angst at the start then fluff)

The next day
Harry's/Rigel's POV
It was around lunchtime when my friends pulled me away saying we needed to talk. I was nervous, I hadn't spoken to them once since I've got here.

"Harry, are you ignoring us?" Hermione started, I couldn't tell whether she was angry or sad. "You haven't said a word to us." She added.  "No-"I was cut off by a very red in the face Ron "Don't lie! You even moved rooms and got Kreacter to not allow you to do work so you could hide away in the library that only you and Sirius can get into!" I was quick to deny but I was yet again cut off by hermione "He's right Harry, you've been ignoring us. And I don't want you in that library! It's known to be full of dangerous spells and curses and you can't be exposed to that, if you keep going in there I'll get Dumbledoor involved." I felt my anger rise. Who was she to control me like a useless puppet that's easily influenced?! Why did she think that some old man had any control over what I read and what I'm interested in?! She's always talking down on me as if I'm too stupid to understand stand anything. My eyes looked down to her neck, her weak point. If I cut of her airway she would shut up and figure out that I am the one in control not her.

Wait, what am I thinking?! She's my friend and is trying to help me. But the image of her slowly turning blue begging with what she could was empowering. I look up to see her still ranting with Ron telling me to listen to her. Kreacter came in and shut them up by lecturing them for talking to me like that.

I went back to my room and sat in the corner curled up in a ball.  "Hey pup, what happened? Did you get in a fight?" I look up to see Sirius and Remus walking towards me before sitting down next to me. I nodded. "It's ok to out grow your friends, not all friends are forever. But I don't think that's the only problem, is it?" Remus asked placing a hand on my shoulder. I felt my eyes water, 'Did I want to tell them what I was thinking? They don't seem like the type to leave me.' "I-I wanted to hurt them." I didn't dare look them in the eye. "Pup it's ok to want to hurt people when you're mad, it's normal." Sirius reassured me "No. I wanted to kill them." I hear their breath hitched but continued anyway "I wanted to make them beg for their lives. I wanted to hurt them so bad." My voice cracked. "You're not alone, many people have thoughts like that. The only reason people think it's a bad thing to have those thoughts are because of the amount of people who act on them." Remus pulled me into his lap and rubbed my back. "What if I act on those thoughts?" Sirius sighed "Then it would look like me and Remmy are going to be doing a lot of digging, though don't kill to many people and we aren't necessarily young anymore." I laughed while Remus chuckled "We can't have our little boy going to Azkaban, can we Siri?" It was was Sirius' turn to laugh. "No we can't. We only just got him, we can't lose him." Sirius kissed my as nuzzled deeper into Remus. "Someone's tired." Sirius cooed as my eyes closed. "Come on, we can all cuddle on the bed." I felt myself being scooped up before finally drifting of to sleep.

I woke up the next day still wrapped up in Remus and Sirius' arms. The sun shone through the crack in the curtains making me look away. "You awake pup?" I heard the tired voice of Remus ask "Mmh." He kissed my head and smiled. "Hey Remus?" He looked at me and nodded "Can I call you and Sirius papa and dad?" I was nervous about being shut down but Remus' eyes watered and he nodded profoundly and hugged me tightly. "Why the water works so early." Dad's voice was ruff "Nothing dad." Dad instantly looked at me and then papa who nodded. Dad started crying and hugged me too. "Love you guy." I said closing my eyes "We love you too." They said at the same time.

We had fallen asleep again which got us in trouble with molly. We were sad that we couldn't act like a family in front of the others as the wizarding  world wasn't very accepting of the lgbtq+ community. It's not like we cared what other thought but it would be troublesome and we didn't want that.

Sirius' POV
Molly pulled me into my family heirloom room" Sirius, when are you going to let me get rid of these dark artefacts? They are much too dangerous!" Molly had been bothering me about them for a while never listening when I tell her that they were important to me. I probably would of given in if it wasn't for the fact that Rigel had taken a liken to them as well as Remus. Rigel is my son and is Remus my husband making it their home too. And I wasn't going to let some old woman rip it down as if it was hers. "Never molly and I swear to merlin if you ask me one more time I'm kicking you and your family out. "I saw her get angry "Sirius! If you kick us out where will poor Harry go?" I looked her up and down "I said you and your family, not Harry." Molly face turned red making it clash with her hair. "Harry is family!" She shouted "Mine? Yes. Yours? No." I walked into the kitchen without another word.