Lust | PJM

08 - it was lust all along

i laid in my bed as i remembered all the times me and aunaesli wore ourselves out with how much sex we used to have.

sometimes i wish i never mentioned the word "love" to her, knowing how the outcome would be and now look at me.

when i try to get that exotic feeling of busting a nut in something nice and tight like that box of aunaesli's, nothing compares to how her walls fell snug around my girth.

masturbating doesn't even help to the point where i've given up on even beating my dick just to cum but no my body's too use to cumming in her.

aunaesli why?

why leave knowing you felt the same way as i did?

were you just lusting after my body?

or were you just loving my body and what it did for you?

sometimes i even go back to club where we met in hopes of seeing her dancing on that dance floor waiting for a man to come and pick her up then take her home to a one night stand.

this hurts.

knowing i love this woman and she just simply lusted after me.

knowing that she just wanted me for the sex and not for an deep connection.

aunaesli please.

i can't take this anymore.

please tell me.

do you want me for me or do you only want me for the sex?

does my feelings not mean anything?

aunaelsi please.

i'm begging.

i don't want to lust anymore.

i want to.

love.

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author note:
that's it. i hope you liked it. i might do an alternative ending to give you another insight on how the story wasn't going to go when i pre wrote this storyline. it'll be out in some days or weeks or even an month. just look out for it:)

lesson: yes lusting can be fun in the beginning but it grows more into love when you constantly see yourself with someone yet they don't feel the same, leaving you heartbroken.