"What the Fuck is your problem?" my dad's friend said to me .
"I didn't mean to say it I swear . " I said .
" even if You told them do you think they'll believe you . your just a kid . plus I'm your dad's best friend ." said ellies my dad's best friend .I kept quiet my dad wouldn't believe me if I told him ellies has been sexually abusing me . He would think I'm crazy or he'll say I'm an attention seeker or something familiar.
I've been cutting My legs to see if that will stop ellies from Rapping me . but it hasn't been working . I know that he's seen them because when he comes in my room in the middle of the night ... Um that's when everything happens . sometimes I can't even sleep knowing that the same shit will happen again .
Okay well I am louisy I am 15 years old and ever since my mom committed suicide when I was 8 but dad brought his best friend ellies to our house . they get drunk all the time . usually at night my dad doesn't even realizes when he's "boyfriend" comes in my room .
I can't tell anyone that's the worst part . even if I could I wouldn't because everyone will think I'm discussing honestly I am . I can't even look at myself knowing that I'm trash and a total piece of shit .