Im tired of reading poems. It's exhausting. They're always the same. The world is cruel and broken. I'm cruel and broken. I hate reading other peoples poems. I don't read poems to feel heard. I don't read them to see my pain in others. I don't read them to know I'm not alone. I don't read them to cry my pain out in the middle of a breakdown. I don't read them to worsen my anxiety in the middle of the night. I read them. I read them to put myself to sleep. I read them to take away my pain. I read them to know there is better somewhere. I read them to see the light in the dark. I read them to lift my spirit. I read them to feel better. I read them to feel like I can find better. I read them to feel like I can be happy too. I read them to see the wonders that my sad soul can't see in life. I read them to feel loved. I read them to feel respected. I read them to feel lifted. I read them to leave. I read them to leave and escape. I read them to find myself. I read them to find you. I read them to find me. So I'm sorry if I say your poems aren't for me. I don't want to read my same narrative twice much less 20. I wanna read about when u saw the ocean jump up to touch the sky. I wanna read about when u say the grass grow so big the Wind whistled when it blew. I wanna read the poem that tucks me in at night. I wanna read the poem that sing to me when I'm sad. I wanna read the poem that tells me it's ok to be sad but makes me be happy. I wanna read the poem that wipes my tears. The one that makes the dark a little less scary. The poems that make the world a little less sad.
