why can't it be ..??

Chapter 6 ~ why do i feel this way ? ~

i woke up early in the morning .. nakatulugan ko na pala ang sobrang pagiisip kagabi ...i got up and do my morning rituals ... i went downstairs to have some breakfast ... i'm really starving kagabi pa ako walang kain dahil sa nakatulog ako... " Good morning ma'am breakfast is served" sabi ng isa sa mga katulong ko " thanks manang" i said with a smile formed in my face.. as i seat in the long table .. i suddenly felt sad .. the feeling i had kept for almost years ago ... eating all alone in a long table .. we never had a bonding ever since i was a kid .. i envy those who had their family time .. many people wanted to be in my shoes but they don't know how much i wanted to be like a normal person ... i don't need money or things that they thought that would satisfy me .. i only need them , to feel how much they love me as their daughter ... here it goes again .. these tears that keeps on flowing ... these tears that i always hide and try to be a brave person i always wanted to be ... there are some things that money can't buy and that is my happiness the love that i haven't felt ever since my existence..

I didn't finish my food ... nawalan na ako ng gana ... this is the reason why I rather eat outside that eat here at the mansion ...

As I approach the classroom I saw Chelsea ... " hey Gail ! good morning ! " she said with a cheerful smile .. " good morning " I said in return ... we walked together to the classroom and occupied our seats... she transfered to the seat in front of me we talked about many things I learned that she also came from a wealthy family she's very beautiful .. she dresses well a fashionista indeed .. she offered to be friends with me but when I refused her she told me that she don't accept a NO for an answer .. I didn't had the chance to argue with her because I owe her ...she was the reason I was able to find my room and besides she looks kind and harmless so I think it wouldn't be a problem having friends with her ... I suddenly remembered him .. am I not fair ?.. I accepted Chelsea as my friend but refused Kurt .. I suddenly felt bad ...

it's already lunch time and I am with Chelsea here at the cafeteria ... I tried refusing her but then again she insisted to have lunch with me since were already friends .. " so.. what do you want to eat ??.." she said cheerfully "anything" I said in a low tone I'm not really used In eating with crowded places ... she left to order some foods leaving me all alone in the table with all eyes on me .. hindi nakalagpas sa mga pandinig ko ang mga bulungan ng mga estudyante sa cafeteria ... she's the new girl right I heard kinalaban nya ang Queen bee ... I also heard that she's very close to prince kyle ... I took a deep breath and get my book from my bag .. I'd rather read books than mind them I guess issues really spread quicker than I expected ... Chelsea got back with so much more food like there's no tomorrow I look her with my infamous questioning look .. " what ?? .. don't give me that look I don't know what you want to eat so I bought them all " she answered with a big smile on her face ...

we were heading back to class when I crossed path with Kurt .. I looked at him and I caught him staring at me .. umiwas ako ng tingin at pumasok sa classroom ... after class I told Chelsea that I can't go to the mall with her and she agreed ... I was about to go home when I saw Kurt infront of his car ... I walked back and change ways and acted like I saw nothing at all .. but then he pulled me back .. " why do you keep on avoiding me ?? " he asked " what ?? I wasn't avoiding you I'm just not familiar with the place and I'm heading the wrong way " pagdadahilan ko ... " then I'll help you then ... I'll show you the way " Kurt said " n-no ! I can handle this all by myself " I said almost shouting and then ran away ...

Kurt's POV

I was left here standing alone curious at the same time .. why does she keeps on running away from me .. I mean I don't have any bad intentions to her ... one things for sure keep running away from me and I'll just keep on chasing you crystal ... bakit ba ako nagkakaganto this is not me I never chase any girl before .. only her this was the first time I felt this way .. am I really in love with crystal ?? ..

Crystal's POV

I run as fast as I could not minding where I was heading ... I really don't understand myself why am I acting like this to him ... I mean he's a good guy and I can see that but why do I keep on avoiding him why do I feel this way ?? ... uhhmm siguro nahihiya lang ako .. tama ! I know that its just in my personality .. nothing unusual ... right ??

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