The feeling within

Tears

There is so much I want to say, emotions and feelings I need to show. For the longest time I've been closed off and kept everything deep within myself, locked away because I never felt anything more than anger and sadness. So I stopped feeling.

Now I can't cry, my eyes dry instead. A desert, uncared for and seldom used. I can't begin to explain myself. An extremely limited vocabulary with a body void of expression. Try as I might, I only end up repeating myself.

Rarely, almost never, I shed a tear. It's all I can manage. A single tear to show for everything I feel. My frustration, my loneliness, the emptiness that plagues me. Every tear is worth thousands of words and actions. Unspoken, never expressed, rotting my mind away. Each tear making me more and more angry at myself for not being able to cry, I can't talk, I can't do anything to show what I really, truely feel.

Rarely does a tear fall.

Today, I shed two.