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Why Me...

⚠️TW⚠️ MAY CONTAIN MENTIONS AND CONTENT OF ABUSE(including child, sexual and ig you could add the big "M" there too), SWEARING, SU*CIDE MENTIONS, S*LF HARM(not in the way you'd think-), DEPRESSION and MAYBE MORE.

IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THESE TOPICS PLEASE TAKE NOTICE IN THIS BEFORE READING THIS OR THE BOOK WHEN THE TIME COMES!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED AND MAY DO AS YOU PLEASE. Thank you⚠️

10.

10 years.

Time flies by fast doesn't it? How could it all have gone so terribly? I mean I was a happy kid. Happy family. Perfect Life. Perfect School. Perfect Friends. What more could I ask for? It's all I've ever wanted. Perfection. I'd do anything to keep it. I'd do anything to keep perfection. Nothing is wrong right? Everyone is happy right? No- No. No. No. No! They aren't happy! They need help- They must stay happy! I MUST KEEP THEM HAPPY?! Keep them happy- 

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K E E P T H E M H A P P Y. 

Wait- its not me is it? Do I make them unhappy? NO! I keep them happy right-?Yeah I do definitely! I keep Mommy Happy! I keep Daddy Happy! I keep Everyone else happy to. Is that why it's always been me? 

Can I not be happy? I don't like this anymore. I don't understand. 

Why does happy have to hurt? 

Why is happy so dirty? 

Why must I do it to be happy?

Why is it me?

Its My job of course! I have to keep them happy! Even if I have to do bad, weird, and dirty.. things. But this is what happy is right? Am I happy? 

I mean 'they're' happy. Is it a special happy? Then why does it hurt? Why do I feel bad? Why do I feel... 

NO This is happy! Happy must just hurt doesn't it?! HAPPY must feel sad sometimes! YOU just make them angry! ITS Y O U R fault. I have to keep them happy. 

I'm the dirty one.

I'm the bad one..

I'm the mistake...

I have to fix it....

I have to make it perfect...

I must keep it perfect.

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