"two years back I have a massive breakdown, that time I was the worst version of myself, I invested my emotions more than required and then I realised that relation from her side was just for benefit, she wanted to be famous and I was at a good point doing much better, then I met her as we worked together, phir hum dheere dheere kaafi close aaye, honestly shehnaaz us time mera yeh tha ki main kuch bhi kar sakta tha uske liye, maine aisa soch ke rakha tha ki pyaar nahi karna yaar per initial days me she used to around me all the time, main out of city bhi jaata tha na shoot pe toh bhi waha saath hoti thi mere and then it happened I fell for her, ek cheez start se thi meri I will always be the way I am in life, but main khud me had se jyada flaws nikalne lag gaya tha, uske smile ka reason banne ke chakkar me main khud ke aasuon ka reason ban gaya, khud se had se jyada disappointment thi, main pagalo ki tarah pyaar karta tha use ekdam paglo waala, and the same way she used to be with me phir humare beech cheeze bigadte gayi, she left me shehnaaz and I was all alone"
He narrates her and she wraps her hands around his arm holding him tight, as she can feel that pain in his voice, she didn't know why but she was feeling herself getting hurt hearing this .......
"I was totally mad, main continuous call karta tha use ki ek baar mere se baat karle, mere shoot ke baad wait karta tha ki saath jaaenge hum phir vo dur jaate gayi, main itna jyada disturb ho chuka tha ki main sab kuch bhul gaya tha I quitted the project I was doing at that time, I requested her, I tried all what I could have done to save ur relationship but nothing worked at that time I didn't realised that I was wasting my emotions, my feelings everything but hume tab nahi pata lagta na ki hum kya kar rahe hote hai" he adds this further, she leans her head on his shoulder....
"family ke saamne hasta tha main kyuki kab tak rota yaar main jaanta hoon unhe bura lagta tha mujhe waise dekh kar, but akele me aisa lagta tha kahi chala jaau jaha kissi ko na jaanta hoon, that time I needed someone badly, but jab logo ko zaroorat hoti hai vo aapke saath hote hai per aapko agar kissi ki zaroorat hoti hai toh koi nahi hota hai, I hated myself for that madness all the time, saare jo dost bhi the kissi se koi baat nahi karna tha mujhe I stopped everything, that time was the worst for my professional as well as my personal life, kaam me man nahi lagta tha movie sign ki thi that too, I wish I could erase those days from my past but I can't ... he stops in between taking a deep breath she rubs her hand on his arm letting him speak further, she wants him to feel relaxed after this .... "phir ... she asks and he continues.
" I started avoiding going out yaar, I only know I passed that time I was in my house all packed for an year because I was so much disturbed ki kissi se bhi milne ka man nahi hota tha, phir time laga aaya bahar us time se, nahi dekh sakta tha main apni mom ko mere liye waise rote hue she's the most important for me, main kissi aur ke liye unhe sad nahi kar sakta tha, phir main thora thora change hone laga, my family is my healer, time beeta hai main poori tarah se change hua, phir se khush rehne laga aur phir realise hua mujhme kabhi koi dikkat nahi thi usne kabhi pyaar kiya hi nahi tha mujhe kyu ki jo aapse pyaar karta hai vo aapke faults ko accept karta hai per yeh toh kabhi hua hi nahi she tried her best to change me aur maine kiya" he smiles at himself sarcastically....
"tune sachme pyaar kiya tha, use baad me realise hua hoga ki usne kitni badi galti ki thi, jo dusre ko dukhi karte hai na sidharth vo kabhi bhi khush nahi rehte hai tu bhul jaa " she says with a smile on her face making him smile......
Thinking for a while he says,"main use kab ka bhul gaya bas khud ke us state ko nahii bhul paata main shehnaaz"
"toh phir abhi ke sidharth ko dekh aur yeh dekh agar vo sab nahi hota toh kya aaj tu jaha main aur strong banke hota kya??? humara past accha ho ya bura uske hi kaaran hum aake change hote hai aur agar vo nahi hota toh tu apne best version se kaise milta????" he hums to what she says acquiescing to her..
