𝙼𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌𝚊 𝚃𝚘 𝙼𝚢 𝙴𝚊𝚛𝚜

𝐑𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐍𝐨𝐰 𝐌𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐌𝐨𝐬𝐭

(A/n italic is Korean)

(Yari POV)

[12:39 am]

"Cool" I whispered to myself as I looked at my phone screen. I should be asleep, but I just can't fall asleep. So here I sit scrolling endlessly at my phone, the different TikTok songs playing loud enough just for me to hear. Along with the other song my soulmate has been playing not so long ago. Another factor to my sleepless night. I've noticed how it would play over or play to a certain time and then start all over again. Just like how Areito would do when practicing her dance routines. Hmm maybe they're practicing a routine? 

*10 minutes later*

I got up stretching my back and grabbed my water bottle. I made my way down to the kitchen to get some water as I was still unsuccessful in getting my sleep. I did my best in making little to no noise, already have mastered this skill from many sleepless nights. Insomnia's a bitch I know. Filling my bottle just enough i tiptoed back to the room. I sat down on the bed and settled the bottle on my nightstand staring at the little details of my room.

I saw the little shadows my fairy lights would cause on the wall. The random painting that were either unfinished and forgotten, or I just never knew what to do with them. The endless art supply that crowds the desk. I lay back and stair at the ceiling bored out of my mind. The song from my soulmate still playing in my head. For the past 10 minutes it's been more played back than the edits I've seen on TikTok. Maybe they really can't get a part right? 

I've noticed and realized a while back that my soulmate is possibly a K-pop fan. Maybe even a Stray Kids fan too, seeing as they always listen to Korean music and a lot of Stray Kids songs. They sound pretty fluent too, as when they sing they make it sound natural unlike me. I've been studying Korean for a good year now, but with no one to practice it with it can get a bit hard. It's a necessity mostly with me going to school overseas. Maybe I won't need it at school but with life outside the classroom I will. Watching variety shows and K-dramas does help a bit with practice. Plus I feel kind of like a boss when I can understand. I look at my phone to check the time again.

[1:07 am]

I don't know why I set myself up for disappointment sometimes. Putting my phone down, inhumanly sounds come out of my mouth as I ruffle my hair. Why can't I just sleep? I close my eyes and just lay there. I'm not sleeping, just laying there. I make consciousness of how my chest rises and falls with every breath I take. I try to control my breathing, but just caused myself to loose air in the process.

"Why" I whine quietly. I move to lay on my side grabbing one of my plushies and holding it close to my chest. I hate these sleepless nights. Head filled with unnecessary anxious thoughts. My body screaming for rest but my mind ignoring it. I stare at the emptiness of my wall. Maybe I should decorate it?

I reach behind my back reaching for my phone and successfully I grab it bringing it close to my face. Now reading 1:27 am I open Instagram. I scroll through the endless post of idols and close friends I have. Mindlessly I like them and keep scrolling down my feed.

(a/n <Instagram by DEAN>)

Naeiri ol geol aneunde
Nan haendeuponeul nochi mothae
Jameun ol saenggagi eopdae, yeah
Dasi inseutageuraem inseutageuraem hane

I heard the quiet music start to invade my hearing. It was clearly a different song from earlier. I in fact knew this song. Slowly nodding my head I staring singing the lyrics as well as I could. Obviously not being fluent in korean some words came out weird

Jal nan saram manko manchi
Nugun eodireul nolleo gatdaji
Joayoneun an nulleosseo
Naman ireon geot gataseo
Jeogi inseutageuraem inseutageuraem sogen