I'm woken up by the sun dripping through the curtain. I lay there motionless and just relax before I have to get up and actaully be productive. I turn my head to the side and see the emptiness next to me. Just another reminder that he's not there and he's most likely not coming back.
I brush it off so that I don't upset myself even more. Without hesitation I busy myself and start getting ready. You could say I'm bitter I guess but I haven't always been this much of a mess over a boy. I always thought no one could break my heart. His name was Luke, Luke Hemmings. Yes he's the guy from 5 Seconds Of Summer; but I knew his as much more then that. I knew him as the boy who would sneak me out just to stay up and watch the sun rise. I knew him as the boy who'd stay with me until I fell alseep and he'd play with my hair and say "Baby, we're meant to be". I knew him as the boy that I loved and if we're being honest, I still love him.
Things change though and sometimes you find a boy who fills your whole life with light but no one else sees that and eventually you're friends will say "He's abusive because he made you cry" whenever you thought all relationships had really bad fights, maybe not as often as you guys did though. Eventually your parents will say "If we find out that you're still dating him, we'll send you away" all because he had a fight with your mother over how you deserve to be treated with more respect from family. The worst of all though is when you try so hard to still work it out because you know you love him and he loves you but he said "I can't deal with your family and friends anymore, babe. I'm sorry" and when he says there will be a time when you're back together because the love between both of you is so strong. So you sit and wait just to find out he's moved on.
Love is cruel when you expect it to be like heaven but, what can you do? You live youre life one day at a time and pretend to be happy because the brain is easy to trick. You could be falling apart but you're body says you're alright. That's me. Anastasia Greene.
