A Despairful Tune (Danganronpa: THH X Male Reader)

A Whole New World: Continued

Y/N's POV

Once I made it down the stairs, I told Taka I was done with my search, and went straight to the dining hall.

Once I finally made it, I sat down on one of the chairs, and put my guitar beside me...
...
...it's quiet...I'm left alone with my thoughts...better find something to do before I start feeling depressed again...Hm...maybe I could go to the school store and try the MonoMono machine again, since I still have some coins left...

...no, I told Mukuro I'd meet her here, and if she sees me gone, she'll probably get mad at me, or worse, end up worried and start a search party...and THEN get mad at me.

...guess I'll just make myself some apple slices...
I got up from my chair, and went over to the kitchen, picked up a knife and an apple, and placed them on top of a cutting board.
...I grabbed the knife...and stared at it for a while...
...this...this reminds me of when I...when I put it up to Mukuro's neck...
...what the hell is wrong with me? I tell the others not to kill each other, saying it's selfish...but then I go and do the exact opposite...I'm a giant hypocrite.

...but one always learns from their mistakes...that's the one good thing I learned from my father.
I stabbed the knife into the top of the apple, and began to dig into it.

As I was in the process of cutting the apple, my mind went to the times of when I was younger, and my mother was doing the exact same thing I'm doing...

Flashback

Mom: "how many apple slices do you want, Y/N?"

"Alot!"

Mom: "alright...but promise me you'll finish them, okay?"

"Okay!"

Mom: "hey, go ask your sister if she wants some, too."

"But...ugh, fine..."

Flashback end

...good times...
...also, despite the fact my dad wasn't nice to me...I kind of miss the times I spent with him...helping him out with house chores...or just playing video games with him...
I...I miss being a kid...

...sniff...

I miss not having to worry about my future...I miss hearing my dad's awful jokes...
I...I miss my childhood!
I miss my family!!

And soon, I began to shed tears...I left the knife beside me, and moved my head down onto the table, breaking down into more tears.

When...when did everything go wrong? And Why...why is life so hard?...Why can't I ever be free from pain?! Why?! Why was I given life in the first place, only to feel pain and misery?! Why?!!

"WHY?!!!!"

As I screamed to the top of my lungs, I threw the knife beside me towards the wall, with it ending up stuck in it.

Soon, I heard the dining hall doors blow open, and multiple people coming in.

Taka: "Y/N, what's wrong?!"

Makoto: "Y/N, what happened?!"

"...you wanna know what happened...?"

I slowly turned around to face them...my tears still flowing out of my eyes.

"...life happened...time happened..."

Makoto: "Y/N, what...what happened, man...?"

"I...I..."

I clenched my fists.

"I hate...I hate everything life stands for!"

Makoto: "...huh?"