the last ray of light (Taekook Ft Vmin)

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Jungkook was watching taehyung with puffed eyes that still pouring tears...... he look back when he feels someone hand on his shoulder.... it was jin.... he extend his hands and jungkook see a letter with blood stains over it....

"This was for you" jin only whisper that..... jungkook look at tae once again before getting the letter while jin took the baby from his hands.....

Never in his life jungkook imagine he was opening something that gonna break his heart just like his husbands...... each word pierced through his heart, breaking it..... each word that smudge with tears and blood gives the pain to him...... each word feel different...... all he can do is just cry while reading it.....

This is taehyungs letter to jungkook....

Hello my bunny,
Sorry... i don't know if i have the rights to call you that..... i dont know how to appologize to you......

Jimin was my first love bun as you know when he left me i was too broken..... his memories still haunts me..... no place is there where his memories are not..... everywhere i go all i could see was him..... and how i was left alone....

When i start to come out of my room years back i do see a unfamiliar person with a bunny smile whom i ignore and dont acknowledge like others around me...... but as time passes i put myself into office and see people..... i do noticed you..... and at some point of my life you have already become a part of my daily life like my parents....

And when i notice you i see how similar you are to jimin..... you both look different but act the same.... you both are cute, kind, clumsy, have same habits, and do anything for your loved once..... and you reminds me of him......all those memories you start to refresh it.....and i hate that its because of someone that is not jimin.....

I dont hate you, but i hate how my heart feels soft for you.....i have lost my love, my child.....i was afraid to fall in love again.....i fear the feeling of love.....and i want you away from me....

But life end up making me to be tied up with you.....i cant forgive how i drag you into my messed up life....at first i hate that you become that person who share my name, who is going to wear my ring which i always dreams of jimin....which i only want jimin to be in.....and i hate you for taking his place......but at some point of my life you enter my heart without my permission.....i start to not have nightmares of jimin.....i start to find my light in you.....

I dont know if was in love with you..... but i was aware that i like you so much......when i went for business trip all i could want was to come back to you.....all i need was to see you.....and i was missing you like the way i miss jimin....and i finally realise that i love you.....i cant tell i was happy but i was so calm after years.....

I eagerly come to meet you but.....but i was welcomed by coldness and the darkness where jimin left me........the same darkness you also leave me.....i was broken beyond repair..... you might not know this but i was in hospital....... it was too much for me to handle and i reoccur my panic attacks again.....

When i receive your divorce paper i couldn't explain how painful it was for me.....i know i was the reason you choose to leave me.....i know i make you suffer, you sacrifice a lot for me, endure a lot for me....and i wont blame you to finaly choose to care yourself......its just i feel i am not someone lucky enough to be loved.......i lose my love twice and my life start to mock at me......

But i lost it all when i here you were pregnant and you go with my baby without telling me.....all those memories of losing my child rush through me....i was afraid bun.....afraid to lose him again.....jimin also dont tell me and he go with my baby leaving me all alone.....just like you do.....