Let Me Be Your Saviour [Jay McGuiness]

Part 8

*KATY'S POV*

I pressed the button and listened for the dailing tone. It rang a couple of times before I heard his voice, it was calm and without any anger. Just how I remember it really.

I would give anything to be able to hear it every single day. But I know that will never happen.

"Hello?" he spoke again, just to see if anyone was still there or if they had gone.

"J-J-James?" I managed to say quietly.

"Yes, who's this?" he replied.

"Erm, it's me. It's Katy..."

"Katy?"

"Hello James..."

"I thought you were dead or something. I haven't heard anything from you for over five months now!" he said, I could tell that he was upset and annoyed but he wasn't going to show that. He just kept himself together and waited for me to reply.

"Yeah, a lot of people seem to think I'm dead. And I'm sorry, I've just been-"

"Been what? Too busy to remember your own family? Too thoughtless to even consider how we might all be feeling? Too stupid to ring before to let one of us know that you were okay?" he snapped at me.

Okay, he did have every right to be angry with me. And he had every right to be acting this way, so I wasn't going to have a go back at him. I knew how he must have been feeling and it made me feel even worse than I already did.

"James, I'm sorry. But I had no choice but to leave, you don't understand what it was like..." I sighed, holding the tears in as I spoke.

"You always have a choice Katy. Where are you now?"

"Staying with someone in London..."

"And where were you staying before that?" he asked, like he was actually concerned about me all of a sudden.

"You know. Here, there and everywhere really..."

"Tell me the truth Katy. Where were you staying before?"

"On the streets mostly!" I replied in pretty much a whisper.

"Oh K, why didn't you ring me before? I could have helped you when you needed it..." he said and the sad thing is, I knew he was telling the truth. I know for a fact he could have helped me out when I needed it; made sure that I was safe and I had everything that I needed.

But I was too afraid to tell him the truth. And I never wanted to ask for help.

Now look at me.

I've got nothing and no one but myself to blame for that one.

"Because I didn't know how you would react. I thought you would hate me for leaving and I thought you would tell me never to contact you again..."

"I don't hate you. I could never hate you, even when you do something stupid like this because you're my baby sister and I just want to protect you. All I wanted to know was that you're alright and now I do, but promise me you won't do anything like this again?"

"But James-"

"Katy, I want you to promise me that you're going to stay where you are and if you need help, then you'll contact me straight away?"