I Might As Well Disappear

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sep 12

Hey, my name is Katsuki Bakugou, I'm 12. My annoying ass mom bought me this diary a couple weeks ago, or months idk. I was feeling overwhelmed so I wanted to write in here. Lately I've been feeling kind of uncomfortable in my body. Like I know I'm a boy but I feel like I'm not. And there's also no way I'm a girl I'm not a trans freak. 

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oct 23

hi again its the same guy. yea guy. I'm not trans a quiz on BuzzFeed told me I'm not. and I didn't lie in the quiz don't even think I did. why would I be so prideful to lie in a quiz haha. oh and today the guys at school were calling transgender people weird and how they would kill them if they saw a trainy or whatever it was they called them. I wanted to walk away. they were being so disrespectful to a future number 1 hero. like saying you're gonna kill somebody in front of me is villainous. they're also the reason i did that quiz. I'm not getting murdered, though they wouldn't have a chance at killing me anyway. no one kills me.(I hope).

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oct 31

happy Halloween. I felt kind of bad about the last entries. I don't even know why i would lie in my diary. diaries are supposed to be a safe spot where you can write about you're feelings without having to worry about anyone knowing. the quiz said I was trans. I think I'm a girl. being a girl doesn't feel right though. I don't feel like i have a gender at all and do you wanna know how. idc if you don't ill say it. (why am I talking like someone is reading this lol). so in gym the teacher split us up in girl and boy groups, I kind of wanted to walk out of school right then and there because I didn't know where I should go. I just went with the boys. it seemed easier to go with the boys.

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nov 1st

so in gym again there was this pink haired person who i always thought was girl. i never really talked to them until today. the teacher split us up in groups. dumb ass ugly ass useless ass bitch ass deku got in my group but that doesnt really matter until later. all girl all boy. the pink haired person got grouped with the girls but asked the teacher if they could go in  a group with the boys . they had to have a private talk with the teacher and i swear the teacher looked like he was about to vomit but they eventually grouped with my group. i asked them why they changed. they said because they arent a boy or a girl  and they thought the boys would win this game. i said me too and i swear i heard all the boys in my group gasp. i made an excuse. "not that im not a boy or girl that i thought we would win". that was a lie.

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nov 25

so I did more research about being nonbinary and i think i am non binary. non binary is when you aren't a boy or a girl. me and the pink haired person ended up becoming friends. I don't want anyone to know about it though so were keeping it secret. we meet on the roof for lunch. we hang out after school every day. their name is Nana. I think i can consider them as my best friend ... sorry Deku. I feel really bad for Deku, like REALLY bad. i met Nana like yesterday and they are my best friend already when deku has been trying to at least be my friend for years. I just relate and feel safer and happier around Nana.

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nov 28th