The Rose of my heart

for blaming you and me

I am so sorry for blaming,

for blaming you all time.

you're dead was not your fault my dear

and it even wasn't mine.

But when I hearded the news

that you really want to die.

I just only might blaming you,

And I thought that it's a lie.

I couldn't cry, could only scream.

'cause I wanted to know why.

you were the one who wanted dead

But why would you say goodbye?

That you were giving up

maked me really so damn angry.

I started blaming me and you

But it didn't help to could admit

That what you choose was not that bad

it helped you out of this shit.

But now I see that your weren't

giving up at all

'cause the battle with your cancer

maked your power and life so damn small.

It took your body, soul and world.

it maked you helpless, sick and powerless.

your pain was awfull, unbearable.

Now I know this, i can clean op this mess

of blaming you and blaming me

'cause now I finally can see.

That crying is really a good thing to do.

but if you could stay,

i promise I'll do anything

to make you stop to cry.

I'll give you everything you want.

and do everything you please.

But I can't do those things anymore,

can not hold you in my arms.

so I will do the last best thing.

I will the for the rest of my life

lay roses on your resting place.