This is a 3 part one shot. Introducing part 3/3 CHANGLIX SKZ Angst.
Endless Wedge
*Changbin's P.O.V!*
I remember when you first saw the snow, since we traveled to this town when we were so young.
The Scent of winter snow
the wind that comes and goes
it brushes by my ears,
and then I started to hear, you singing
this tune,
it's just as if you were here
The memories are still fresh.
the times when we would play,
Playing hide and seek,
laughing the days away,
The laughter and smiles we shared when you were still strong and healthy, happy even.
and even though we fought once in a while
Even when we fought, we never hurt each other's feelings and stayed by each other, even when we wanted to be left alone from the other.
your calm and gentle voice is everything
That I can recall
so I guess I didn't mind it much at all
I miss you, I miss you so much that it still hurts. Your sweet voice, even when you were mad, was still as beautiful as you were.
I just want to hold you one more time,
to feel your hand within mine,
although I know that where you are,
Is somewhere I can't find
I miss your tiny hands, your deep voice, your songs and your dances, even when you weren't dancing seriously,
but still this little piece of,
just a single word of regret on my mind
It will be holding me apart,
Like a wedge inside my heart,
I know that this wedge will stay and I still have you here, even if I can't see you.
And what you have given to me
were times spent like a dream,
Being yours and by your side, even if it wasn't forever, were the best,
and what you have given to me
is the brightest smile I've seen,
Your smiles were brighter than the sunshine, so beautiful and precious, that I fell in love with you all over again.
and what you have given to me
is a past I'll always love,
I'll always remember you and smile when I look back at our time and memories together.
but what you couldn't give to me,
was a future with both of us
You couldn't stay, couldn't give me the future we hoped for, even if I wanted you to.
how many seasons passed,
How long has it been, Felix? Since I held you close,
how many years have passed,
since that wintertime from way back when
The seed sapling from the tree on the hill, our favorite spot to be alone with each other, away from the townspeople who never understood what we had.
The flower we planted that day,
still gives such a sweet scent,
and when springtime comes it'll blossom, once again,
I can't wait until springtime, when the sapling will bloom once again, telling me that there is still another tomorrow, another new day to start again.
Although that the sprout has slowly
Changed into a tree so sturdy
Over All the years still you have stayed
With the passing years, the sapling has grown into a sturdy tree in our backyard, yet I know it's still the same tree that you loved so dearly.
the same as you've been since that day,
The image of your smile,
from back then will always be deep in my heart,
like a wedge without an end,
never to come out again,
Your smile will be something I will always keep with me.
And what I had given to you,
were our calm and happy days,
I stayed by your side, even in your final moments, telling you how much you mean to me and everything else, so you could hopefully forget your sickness,
and what I had given to you,
were the tears that fell down on my face
I cried more than you, even if it was you who was dying, even when I was supposed to be strong.
and what I had given to you,
were our happiest memories,
I tried to make you smile and laugh every chance I got,
but what I had not given to you,
Was a moment for you and me
I couldn't say the three words you needed to hear,
When I lay there alone at night and sleep cannot be found
I cry myself to sleep every night, the pain of losing you still fresh no matter how many years have passed,
I remember your singing voice
such a warm and gentle sound
when I struggle to keep the painful
tears from coming out
I think back to the happy things
you used sing about
I smile sadly as I sit at the piano, softly humming a happy song that you would always hum when I was down,
cause I dont want to sing this type of tragic song right now
cause I dont want to sing this tragic...
(SONG RIGHT NOW)
It almost feels like you're still here, singing with me. I know that we'll meet again,
To my dearly beloved one,
I hope that you rest in peace
Safely in this endless wedge in my heart
I play our song, the wedge in my heart feeling warm and soothing,
In eternal sleep
(In eternal sleep)
and the things that you gave to me and the things I gave to you
I will keep them forever as
memories I'll never lose
I know that you'll always be near, so I'll continue to live until my time has come, keeping you in my heart and memories until we meet again.
(I'll never let it go-)
your voicing calling me
It's always been right here
and right here it will always be
I know you're happy wherever you are, watching over me as you have always done,
So listen when I Say
So please listen,
"I LOVE YOU TILL THIS DAY!"
(I LOVE YOU TILL THIS DAY!)
I love you, Lee Yongbok, my dear Lixie, my only sunshine.
Let us meet again and stay together in the next life!
