This is a 3 part one shot. Introducing part 2/3 CHANGLIX SKZ Angst.
Proof of Life
*Felix's P.O.V!*
I take a deep breath, laughing and smiling.
It's wintertime again,
the wind whispers to me
I sing, giggling lightly like the wind is whispering to me.
As it brushes by my
ears, I shiver warily
I look over to you, you're
right here by my side
Closing my eyes briefly when the wind brushes by us, shivering lightly before look over to you.
And the air you breathe
is cold and white
You've always been by my side, always making sure I'm happy and safe.
It's come, the time of year
when fragile lives wither away
My heart breaks, knowing that I can't keep our promise we made when we were only 10. That I can't stay by your side.
And I impatiently await
the coming of spring days
My time is running out too early....
When I can listen to the voices
of nature's budding lives
As they come into the world
under warm and gentle light
I miss the sounds, the smells, eating and drinking something I can taste.
Of this fate that no one can escape, I'm well aware but still I will fight on
My illness is unknown so there's no cure or treatment. I know I'm going to die sooner than later.
Just to live another day,
just to sing another song
The pain is excruciating, but it gets less difficult to ignore when you're by my side.
It'd be nice before that day will
come to find a way to leave behind
A token that says that this is
where I'm from, a proof of life
My songs are special because I want to tell them to you everyday, hoping that even when I'm gone, you'll still smile when you hear them.
I don't want to sing this
type of tragic song right now
Hey, I have just one request
so won't you hear me out?
Will you still listen? Even if it hurts?
I just want to keep on smiling,
laughing with you everyday
Singing light and happy songs,
taking all our cares away
I hope we meet again in a different life, where we have all the time in the world to stay with each other and make better memories, long memories.
Now right before my eyes,
The winters come and go
Finally I realize something
but I do not know
I feel scared as my vision gets fuzzy, smiling sadly as I collapse to the cold, snow-covered ground.
The words to say to you, I just
do not know where to start
But I trust that we are still
connected by our hearts
Will I see you again? Hear you?
I no longer can see anything
Where are you?! It's so dark and I'm scared....
I no longer can hear anything
It's too quiet?! Please say something?!
I'm so scared to bear this pain on my
own
I feel so alone
I don't want to go?! Why can't I stay?!
So while everything inside of me
Continues to slowly decay
It's so cold, why is it so cold? Is this what dying feels like?!
The thought of you smiling brightly
Even now
Won't fade away
The horrible thoughts and fears and pure-panic stop echoing, your smile shining bright through the cold darkness around me.
I am sure that you are singing a
happy tune right now
Although the sound of emptiness still
resonates so loud
I feel happy, knowing that I'm not alone, that I'll see you again and wait until then.
Don't forget the words I said to you,
though I'm sure you've always known
Even if I can't be with you physically, I'll always watch over you.
I will stay here by your side
You will never be alone
I don't feel so lonely knowing
that you are here with me
The warmth of your hand over
mine is all I really need
My love, please don't worry about me and promise to keep smiling.
Though I can no longer hear your
voice, I can hear your heart instead
I still know the words you say to
me,
My heart is beating fast, because I know what you want to say.
I love you so so much,
you said
I will always love you and I'll wait until we can start a new life.
I don't want to sing this type of
tragic song right now
Hey, I have just one request so won't
you hear me out?
I just want to be here next to
you, laughing just like everyday
Singing light and happy songs, taking
all our cares away
I close my eyes, smiling as I slip away, a single tear falling down as I breathe one last breath.
And this song that marks my parting
time, I will dedicate to you
But before I leave I
want to tell you I'm
Thankful for you.
Thank you Seo Changbin, I'll be waiting!
