𝐀𝐧 𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐀𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐘

ℍ𝕖𝕝𝕡

Sometimes, I never know whether I am just uneasy,

Or if I have finally lost my mind.

I have days and nights where I feel like my body and my brain are working against me.

There are moments in the day when I feel like my pulse is never going to slow down.

Times, where I feel like my head is never going to stop hurting.

Like no matter what there's always going to be some sort of ache in me,

Whether it be physical or psychological.

And I just feel like sobbing, screaming, hitting something or hurting myself...

Just to find any kind of release.

In those instances, I end up asking myself:

"What the fuck is wrong with me?"

"Why can't I ever be okay?"

"Why can't I ever feel normal for ONE FUCKING DAY?!"

I hate my brain and what it does to me sometimes.

My emotions spiral completely out of control,

And my mind always finds itself heading towards some dark places.

And at times...

I never know what to do about it.

I know the main thing suggested is talking to someone.

"You can always go to a therapist and talk your feelings out"

"Maybe tell someone what's been going on lately."

"You know you can always talk to me."

But people need to realise that sometimes, talking does not help.