𝐀𝐧 𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐀𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐘

𝔸𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕣

To say I'm angry is an understatement
As of recently, it's been my dominant emotion
Towards mild annoyances
Towards the ones closest to me
Towards myself

And sometimes I don't know why I feel the way I do
It's like this uncontrollable wave of rage washes over me
Pulling and pushing me over and over again
Engulfing me with its poisoned waters

And I have no choice but to lash out as a means of escape
Screaming into my pillows, punching my bedroom walls
Hugging and clawing at myself to the point of drawing blood
I'd do everything in my power to stop the anger from taking over

But it's no use.

There are days when I feel as if I'm cursed with this fury
That nothing would come out of my mouth other than the poison I spewed
And that I was born antagonist to those I'm closest to
I fear and dread their inevitable resentment toward me

I just want things to get better
I just want to be better
Cause at this point, I feel as if I am my own worst enemy.