I have no words of wisdom this time, just words of love. I'm not sure what we live for, but I think it's to change.. I think we're supposed to grow and adapt to make ourselves happy and some of us struggle with that.
I've spent my entire life struggling, sinking... And I'm telling you it's not worth ending. You aren't alone. You can change this little by little. You can't cure yourself, but you can ease certain things to the best of your ability. You can seek real help if able.
I want you to be okay. I want you to have hope and be happy and finally move on from all the bad things that have happened. I want sunlight and flowers and warm days for you.. Beach days filled with sand and ice cream, spending time with your family doing whatever makes you happy.
And one day, you're going to have it. One day you wont have to rely on the adults who've failed you. Even if they didn't mean to. One day you'll be able to make a family, whether it be by blood, marriage, or friendship.
I look forward to seeing you grow.
