prinxiety oneshots, thoughts and other delusions

Hello again,darling

A/N: ok listen i wasn't in a fluff kinda mood take this if you can't handle serious angst skip this

"Hello again,darling" I started, fidgeting with my hands.

"If you're wondering, Patton and Logan are doing ok. We all got an apartment together. I-" I took a deep breath. "I decorated your room a bit.i got you a rug because i know your feet get cold and wearing socks in the house is for losers"I smiled at the memory. He and Logan fighting about him walking around barefoot in his dorm. Logan threw a jar of crofters at his face at the end.

"I'm working on buying that house you really liked. The one with the big tree in the back you can hang a swing off of. My job is ok i guess. I'm trying to find a new one because you always tell me to follow my heart" The amount of times we've laid in the backyard, his arm wrapped around me, as he gave me the same advice to every problem I had. "Follow your heart, mi vida" then I would roll my eyes and kiss his cheek. Sometimes we'd go back inside, sometimes we'd fall asleep right there.

I twisted the ring on my finger. A ruby and sapphire on each side, with a garnet in the middle. A small crown over it. "You remember when you proposed to me? In my living room? I was definitely expecting something much more extravagant, because,that's what you do.Like it was only memorable if it was big. But that's my favorite memory Ro, anything with you is."

I wiped my eyes and continued "a new disney movie came out, I think you would have loved it. I usually don't like the songs, but they were really cute. Bruno reminded me of remus. I cried at the end. It was weird going to a movie without you. I saved you a seat though, in case you did come." I looked over at the slowly setting sun. the blue sky turning into a swirl of pinks and oranges.

"Well, I have to go, but I'll be back tomorrow! I brought you some flowers, roses to be specific. I miss you, love. I wish you were here. I don't know what I'm doing but I'll figure it out. I know you'd want me to find someone else, but there's no one else like you. Well, I'll leave you alone to your devices. I can't believe I'm doing this but, to quote hamilton: I can't wait to see you again, it's only a matter of time "I let the tears flow freely down my face.

I placed the roses onto the dirt, and looked at the smooth headstone for the last time today. I crouched there for a minute before getting up and walking to my car. If people were staring at me, I didn't really care anymore. I just got in my car and drove home.