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#49 Thinking About You II

Mina's POV:

"God, he's so harsh."

It's been weeks when I stayed at his house, performing the duties of being a wife even if we're just arranged.

"What? I'm just teaching you the right way to cook." My eyes widened.

Oops, I think it slipped out from my mouth. Nice one Mina. You summoned the beast again.

"Eh? I said... It's, it's so... hot." I fanned myself and pretended that I'm living in a place where the sun is directly pointing at my face.

"You can deny all you want but just to remind you, my hearing skills are on the next level."

"Omg. When did you learn how to brag?" I wasn't amused and he knew that I'm acting like I'm surprised.

"Ugh, you know what? You're really annoying. Since highschool. You stalked me walking from school going to my house."

Dang, he knew?!

I was left, speechless. I blinked multiple times, trying to rethink of my life decisions.

"Yah, it wasn't like that." I tried to escape from the topic but he's pulling me back.

"So what is it? Did you just followed me around for fun? Do you know how uncomfortable I am in those days?"

The mood. The mood changed in an instant. I'm just joking around but he's never been like me. He's always serious at everything, even small talks. Even when I'm just learning how to cook.

"That's why I never wanted to see you again." I tried to laugh it out but my bitter side keeps showing.

"Even the marriage?"

"Hey, I'm not included in that marriage thing. I never knew you're the son of my parents' childhood friends." Just a little, my voice got higher than before.

"Yes. Because that they're daughter is following me, they want to grant her wish right? To stick beside me forever?"

"What is wrong with you?!" I retorted with anger.

"You always see me as the person who follows you everyday. If you're uncomfortable back then, why didn't scold me? If you're annoyed because of me or because you like someone else that you feel like I'm breaking your relationship, you should've stopped me. Because now, I really, really don't want to see you again because of it. Starting that day, I always want to hide from you. Because I realized that what I did in the past was completely wrong. So, say all you want. I've changed Wonwoo, and don't tell me that I like sticking with you because now, I hate it!" I barged out from the situation as I ran upstairs to my room. Yes, I locked it for him. I mean, he doesn't want to me to be beside him right?

But, why? After all the times that I have regretted my measures, I can't seem to move on. I'm still thinking about him, all day and night. Thinking about him was the only routine that I always repeated since then. And that, I would never skip.

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Third Person's POV:

The night falls but Wonwoo was still looking at the ceiling blankly in his room. He keeps thinking about her, including in the past.

Jeon Wonwoo, a guy who doesn't like to commit in anything. That's his style; doing the exact opposite. If you're happy, he'll be serious. If you'll stick beside him, he'll go away. If you'll say that you like him, then he'll say he doesn't like you back. Even if the reality is, he does.

For sure, many people already labelled him a lot of names. He pretended not to care but deep inside, he's just too fragile. That became reason of why he does the exact opposite of what you'll do. For him, it's better to hurt someone than to be hurt. Yes, he knows he's selfish but once he'll experience pain, he would break into millions of pieces and will be ten times more injured than to the ones he harmed. He wants to avoid it.

It's because when he loves, he'll give everything until his limit. He takes everything seriously, even small things. He needs to make sure that everything is right. Maybe, that's why he's alone. Scratch that, maybe that's why he wants to be alone. So that nothing will bother him. So that he won't handle any responsibilities or to feel guilty in some kind of way. Looking at the big picture, he's just the on hurting himself.

Averting to his other self, he doesn't want to grow old by himself. He doesn't want to die alone, with no one to mourn his loss. Thinking deeply, he realized that if you experience love, you will also experience pain. He just needs to surpass one stage: acceptance.

He abruptly stood up and closed his door. His pace then slowed down when he noticed that he's slowly walking towards Mina's room. He stopped, knowing that his senses functioned properly again.

"Mina?" He slowly knocked at her door but no one responded. He tried again, until he reached his third time. A bunch of questions then clouded his head. He knows for sure that she was hurt earlier, but she didn't acknowledge his presence for hours already. Even though his mind prohibited him to do so, his hand twists the knob as it slid open without any effort.

"Oh." His biggest fear finally came true. He's alone again. He scanned the place and he didn't saw her things. He checked her cabinet only to see that her clothes are gone.

"She left." Reality hits him hard. As much as he doesn't want to feel any pain, the time comes for him to undergo it. His brittle self caused his heart to ache, until it feels like it doesn't work anymore. And there he is, lowering his head, witnessing how he is slowly breaking apart.

Despite of the gloomy situation, he was able to walk downstairs but with a heavy feet. Even though he keeps changing the topic inside his head, the more he thinks, the more he can't forget.

Suddenly, the door opened as it revealed Mina. As soon as he saw her, he wanted to go near her but he knows his limits. He knew that she couldn't forgive him easily.

"Your mom is right. You're to weak to be alone." She muttered. She intently looked at his eyes and saw how broken he was.

Wonwoo didn't do anything but tried his best not to shed a single tear. He tried as much as possible but it just kept flowing on and on.

"Tsk. I thought you're Jeon Wonwoo? You're more like a baby." Mina teased him to lift up his mood, but he wasn't affected by it.

"Everyone gets hurt Wonwoo. Everyone does." Seeing him wants her to comfort him. Mina quickly gave him a hug, patting his back simultaneously as it signifies that she's impatient to make him feel better.

"I apologize. I'm sorry, I'm just afraid to get hurt. I'm afraid that you won't like me back. That you'll just stay here because we were forced to do so." Finally, he embraced her back. He suddenly felt warm, as he feels like he was able to breathe again.

"Don't worry, I'm here, willing to stay by your side forever. And don't ever think that I'll forget you because,

"Day and night, I'm always thinking about you."

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Author's note 📜:
This was so bad. Argh. Still, thank you!

-sebongssi