3 words ... (justin x ryan)

before the party .

WARNING: there will be  cussing in the chapter. you have been warned.

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~ ryan's pov ~

i love this boy so much. but i dont want him knowing yet. or ... at all really.

he deserves so much that i dont think i can give to him at all. im not that special. but, i love him.

its about 3:00pm and we need to be downstairs at about 5:45.

im pretty sure justin is asleep but i dont know. i look over his shoulder to see that he's blinking which means he's up.

he seems ....

lost in his thoughts.

maybe he's just thinking really hard about something ?

i wonder what.

i push my thoughts away when i start to see justin sit up.

~ justin's pov ~

i sit up because i dont want ryan just to wrap his arms around me. i want more.

i see ryan sit up as well with a pretty confused expression.

"what are you doing ?" i hear him question.

"this" i say with a short smile.

i get on ryan's lap and straddle him. my knees on his sides. i hug him as he very slowly wraps his arms around me.

"a- are y- you comfortable ?" i ask, while stuttering.

' of course i HAD to FUCKING stutter '

"yeah ... im always comfortable with you my love"

my heart starts fluttering.

i rest my head on ryan's neck as he puts his head on top of mine.

i love you so much ryan ...

but you dont know it ...

and never will.

~ ryan's pov ~

justin fell asleep. i hear his soft snores and my heart just melts. he's adorable.

i reach over to my nightstand to see what time it was.

3:35pm, my phone shows.

' god damn time went by fast as fuck ' was all i could think.

i decide me and justin can relax for a while longer. i mean we have 2hr and 10min before we have to meet everyone downstairs.

we can rest for at least a hour.

i notice the tv remote it on my nightstand so i reach over and grab it. i turn on the tv only to scroll through netflix and choose what to watch.

i finally found an anime to watch, haikyuu.

i turn it on and start to watch it while time passes on.

i guess as time went on, i fell asleep.

~ oli's pov ~

i haven't heard from justin or ryan for a while. im gonna text seb and see if he's heard from ryan. i know how close they are. so i text him.

- in messages -

me:
hey seb ?

seb: whats up ?

me:
well i was wondering if you have heard from justin or ryan at all since our meeting earlier ?